Vent Book because I don't have one yet

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Gartic phone happened

i was high

i wasnt thinking

i made some jokes

now cay hates me

i shouldve known better than to ask brina to do that

i meant it as a joke

but it escalated and now they think i actually like him

i have to play along so they think im okay

brina said something about cay

i didnt hear it

she said something that i did

i know i did something wrong

i know i made him uncomfortable somehow

i didnt mean to hurt anyone

i always fuck everything up

that was our first convo and stupid drugs ruined it

i cant believe that i made another person hate me

i want myself dead

im not in love

it was all a joke

almost a ploy

i wasnt trying to actually bully anyone

i wasnt trying to make anyone mad

i wish i had never gotten high

im so sorry to cay and brina and ari and wyn for yapping so much and making you all uncomfortable with my "harmless" joke.