Vent Book because I don't have one yet

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on this call and theyre so happy, i dont want to ruin the mood

im just a buzzkill and i know that, but gartic phone doesnt hit the same after that.

i dont know if i should leave the call. theyre having so much fun and i dont know how to make myself laugh again.

fuck it

im sick of pretending to be okay.

i know im being dramatic

i know im overexaggerating

i know im being manipulative

i know im just an asshole for ruining the mood for my friends

i cant cry because my dad will hear

i guess im staying up until midnight so im not heard

im sorry to anyone who read this