SILENT OBSESSION..

Present..

It's 1:26am and I'm laying in bed and lost in your memories and inhaling the smoke in and out.. your memories always haunt me and I let them haunt me. I let them shetter me,tear me, spoil me because it also gives me peace..sounds  psychotic? maybe but it helps me to get out of other wounds which are still hidden from everyone.. Your pain feels like a drug of my disease to my untold traumas which I never care to heal... Remembering our talks and our time I fell asleep.

Yn..wake up it's morning aren't you late?huh..huh what will I do with your disturbing sleeping schedule. You were sleeping when you heard your mom's words.Aah not again..you  wake up and take a shower and goes to take a cup of tea.. yeah guys I'm a tea lover.you entered in the kitchen and as always you find there is no tea for you. your mom also entered in the kitchen and started lecturing you. I didn't give much attention .I stayed silent and continue making tea..such a useless daughter you are..my life would be more better if you never born your mom said you didn't said anything.. when she's done with her lecture she leave me alone. Thank God finally.My tea is also ready you took  and entered into my room. I sip my tea and open social media.I  stair at his account and admired his face.why..just why?..huh?how can you pretend like this.. it's ok....I'm used to being left like this..but why this time it's hurting that much.why I'm feeling nothing and everything at the same time.why I choose you when I already know that things are not going to be that easy but it's okay. Just get ready because I'm not alone who is going to hurt.. you are going to hurt too.. with me. you didn't realise that you are also attached with me. But guess what you are going to know about it but it's on you what will you choose ..me or someone else.I'm not going to confess anything anymore. you like to play games huh.. okay no problem Play.I will decide how good player you are. you think you are good at being Casanova huh?.. let's see when you are going to give up on your play.Good luck. let's get hurt together.

My  phone started ringing and I pick the call.. Hello?..where are you huh we are in class don't tell me, you were sleeping this late again.yaah I wasn't ok I wasn't sleeping,then what are you doing at home  Marie ask me ..actually i wasn't feeling like coming college today but I can't skip too so I decided to come late and I'm coming I'm on the way I  lied to Marrie ..I'm at  home right now. Don't lie to me I know you are at home.I'm waiting just come fast me and IU are waiting for you.ok I'm coming bye now.

Finally I reached and I'm walking towards my classroom. I entered in my classroom. everyone started looking at me like I'm a ghost..ugh I don't like humans..I just come college so everyone knows that I'm still alive I think in head. Yeah come fast Marrie and IU said ..yeah I'm here are you happy now..I didn't know I'm that pretty that you can't stay without me a day I wink at both of them.yeah sit now ..now tell me what's the problem with you she said..huh nothing I'm good I said.yeah stop fooling me.I know you better ok I'm your friend. yeaah I know I said.
Let's eat something.. I'm hungry I said.ok let's go.we started walking towards the canteen.we sat on the chair and started eating snacks when Jungkook join us .Hi girls what's up? He said my heart beat started racing when he came but I act normally.yn where are you these days huh?you didn't message me these days he said. Nothing I'm just busy these days I said while eating. Are you free today? Let's hangout today he said. sorry jungkook I'm not free today I said and he nod ok fine. His phone started ringing and he picked up.. yes baby did you miss me huh he said..I feel a pang of pain in my chest..I miss you to baby..yeah ofcourse Why not. I'm coming let's go on a date I'm free he said to her and hung up the call. Ok yn bye I have to go now she is waiting bye he said and leave. Are you okay yn my besties ask me. I nod .I'm done eating let's go to classroom now.

Jungook how am Looking keera said. Gorgeous as hell I wink at her. okay now sit and eat I said.we both started eating and talking. She started laughing while talking but I didn't pay much attention.Jungook?..Jungook where are you lost are you listening to me? Yeah ofcourse i said.she started talking about herself and about others.I get bored.I check my phone there is no notification from yn ..she didn't message me from some days..I don't know why but I'm craving for her messages ..she always make me laugh she didn't know I smile. I started remembering when we met together with our friends..she was in  a red dress looking so eligent and prett at the same time.The way she observe everything thing around her and stay silent and don't talk that much..the way she always be careful and behave so muturely with everyone.she looks Devine.I remember how she laughs at my meaningless jokes and how she get angry on me sometimes.. when she gets angry she just look at me differently and I like that how she reacts. I remember I was teasing her and she get frustrated and she mistakenly touch my thigh and she get panicked and said sorry and started looking away at that time i feel nourvous first time. We both didn't look at each other at that time because of nourvousnes. We take a group picture that day. I was happy that day. We were friends from school days. I like how she behave so childish with me but my friends told me she doesn't talk to anyone and when she does she talk very straight forward and behave muturely with each other..I get amuse to listen this because your behaviour is different with me. I ignore your messages all the time but you still message me but you don't know that I read your every message and laugh and I always wait for your silly messages. I'm addicted to your messages.

Jungkook? Jungkook where are you lost again keera said.huh nowhere I clear my throat and came to reality that what I'm thinking. Realisation hit me that I'm on a date with my girlfriend and I'm thinking about my friend. Keera is my girlfriend and we are together now and what I'm thinking. I spent my whole day with keera and drop her to her house and she hugged me tightly and I hugged her back and she leave to her house and I started driving to my house.I reached home and enter in my room and lay in bed and I started looking at the seeling. What is this feeling..