Eunoia

Day Full Of Surprises

[Mr.Tate in picture above or on the side for laptop readers]

It's been a week since the funeral,and Jude still hurts,but not as much as Mr.Tate although he doesn't show it. He cries about almost every night,and he drinks heavily, the results are clear as day,bags under his eyes,messy hair,wrinkled clothes. He was clearly really close to his mother.

"Um, Jude would you mind staying after class?" He asked while kids started pouring out after the last bell. She didn't answer,she was actually hoping he wouldn't call her out,but here she was standing next to his desk,like a lost puppy.

"Its come to my attention that you are failing math,and I get it math is really hard,no one likes it,but I happen to be well advanced in that area of expertise. I wouldn't mind helping you out, or tutoring you." He said a smile on his face. He looked exhausted. "Oh, no I couldn't ask you to do something like that,especially not now."She said,he sighed he didn't care,he knew exactly why he offered,he needed someone to grow close to,he needed a distraction. "You didn't ask,I offered,here's my address come here every tuesday,and Thursday,for a tutor session, or whatever you guys call it now, 'study date?' He put finger quotes around study date,it sounded more like a question. "U-Um uh OK sure,thanks.." she said,he nodded turning back to his work and she left.

She was so relieved when she got home,she fed her babies,and played her electric guitar,she invited Ruby over. "Mr.Tate wants to tutor me,at his house..." Jude said,and Ruby choked on her drink. "Suck his dick" Ruby said waving her hand in the air. "What!? No way! What the fuck is even!..." Jude said laughing. "I don't know man,but that man could fuck me any way he'd like to" Ruby said,and Judes jaw dropped. "Oh my God Ruby your lesbian!" She said. Ruby winked. "Exactly" she said getting up and setting Naz down in his little bed. "His voice is amazing,I would literally sit in a dark room listening to him speak for hours non-stop" Ruby said. "I swear!" Jude exclaimed. "Alright I'm going out for food,do you want anything?" Ruby asked. "Oh no I'm fine thanks" Jude said setting Niblet into his pin. And dimming the lights a little. Closing the door. "If I don't come back,I drank a liquor store" Ruby said. "Again Ruby? Look I told you if there is anything you need to talk about I'm here" Jude said hugging her. "Yeah I know,but really I'm fine." She said. "Ok be safe,I love you"

Ruby

Ruby parked her car leaving it running she knocked on Alice's bedroom window,she was clearly intoxicated,but her body did what it wanted and she was prepared to say what her heart and her mind have been arguing about for the past few years. "Ruby!? What are you doing here? My mother would freak" Alice said raising up her window,Ruby helped her out. Ruby stared at her with an intense look, Alice face turned to confusion,"What? Why are you here? It's been 3years since we last spoke" Ruby sat there for a moment. She sighed, tearing up. "You didn't even give me a chance Alice." She said, you can hear the hurt and ache in her chest. "Ruby, I-" Alice began to say,but was cut off by Ruby.

"You didn't care, but look maybe you didn't realized how important to me you were and I'm not entirely sure you knew how perfect to me you were I dreamt of waking up next to you,then I found myself just dreaming that I still had you. You were everything I needed,I gave you more than just my heart,and you gave me a silly excuse to why you broke it.I gave you trust,you fed me lies, if you loved me as much as you said you did you would still be here.A part of me always knew you had doubts but maybe I was just too blind and too selfish to let you go,because at the time I needed someone more than a friend,and you were an Angel,then you turned cold,with no soul,how could you fall so low,how could your contact name in my phone go from baby to Lucifer,how could you love me and leave me,I loved you with everything,and I still do,you don't care,you only care about the lies your mother tells you,What makes our love so different then the others? Maybe it's the fact that only one person feels something while the other person pretends. I get why you left,or maybe I don't,maybe your feeding me lies and I don't know the whole story,but I'm going from what you told me,so forgive me if I'm wrong,but you once told me that you loved me from the moon and back,I'd say It back to you but that would mean my love for you is measurable,and it isn't. If there's anything I don't understand, it's why you ended it over text message, after all the things I had said to you that were completely true and still are,I deserved for you to at least I don't know,not end it at all,would you come back to me if I prayed the same way your mother prayed for you to end us? Who am I kidding,God isn't judging us,the bible says and I quote 'love does no harm to its neighbors, therefore love is the fullfillment of the law', You were so happy to be straight again that it hurt even more,because you made me feel different, and that wasn't even the problem the problem was that you made me feel different alone,when we used to be different together,at least that's what everyone wanted us to believe,I just want you back,I can't take so much as not talking to you,and not having you at all is killing me inside. And I get it your mom was stressed and couldn't hold a relationship, she's been through a lot I get it,and I understand you couldn't take being looked at differently by the only parent that actually stuck around,or maybe it was Sam,you couldn't dream of him looking at you or seeing you any different, you didn't want change because he was more like a father to you growing up then anyone,you've seen so much,but you never actually stopped and asked about me,your not the only one with family issues, I told my parents that I was bisexual, and everything changed,my dad didn't talk to me for a week,and my mother didn't even love me,and to think the person I fell for,took me for granted, you never loved me,you needed someone and I was there,you new I liked you and used that against me,so I wouldn't leave,but I wouldn't have left,your the only one that went through that fucking so called phase,we said and did so much Alice if it was such a bad thing the bad was already done. I wasn't looking for a friend, I was looking for a forever, and you said that, you said we would be together forever,and fuck! your forever is quite short my friend,Maybe I couldn't give you the world,but I was gonna be with you until I could give you everything, more than my everything, but that night,you texted,you fucking texted me and broke my heart,because your mom was too Damn selfish to accept the fact that you was actually being you and how happy you were being loved by a person without a dick, so she 'stressed' whatever the hell that means, who's stressed over their daughters happiness, Shit my mom didn't accept that Shit but at least she didn't act like the world was coming to a fucking end. I really fucking loved you and I still do but god I fucking hate you."