Ethernal Sunshine

PROLOUGE

 DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either product of author's imagination and inspiration. Any resemblance to actual persons or actual events is coincidental.

This story is not affiliated with any universities.

Please note that I will be using a mixture of reality and fiction .

Please be advised that this story contains TRIGGER WARNINGS, sensitive content, mature themes, and strong language that are not suitable for young audiences.

Pangarap.

Madami akong gustong gawin, puntahan, matikman na pagkain, basahin na libro, at masulat na musika  bawat araw sinisigurado ko na may nagawa ako kahit isa sa mga hakbang patungo sa pangarap ko.Tahimik na buhay at magkaroon ng sariling bahay ang pangarap ko mula pa ng bata ako.

Dahil ayaw ko maranasan ang lahat ng nakaraan gusto itong makalimutan . I just want to embrace myself  and move forward.

"Wala kang kwentang bata ka! " , Wag ka lalabas ng bahay ah !"

Pero lagi kong naalala ang mga araw na yun hindi ko alam kung bakit ? parang kasalanan ko lagi.

lagi akong nasa libro ko para makalimutan ko kahit saglit ang mga nangyayari pero ang mga pasa at sugat sa katawan ko ay nararamdaman kong unti-unting humahapdi.

Sinubukan kong tumakas, sinubukan kong makaalis sa bahay na yun pero hindi ko  kayang iwan ang mga kapatid ko paano sila?

Lola uuwi ka na ba dito? miss na kita.

kapag graduation mo nak promise uuwi ang lola ah!

Tuwing uuwi ang lola natutuwa ako dahil laging may kakampi sakin laging may mag-aalala at mag-aalaga sakin.

Nung maliit pa ako ay lagi ako sinasama ng lola sa batis para maligo sa malinaw na tubig at maglaro kasama ang mga bibe at kumuha ng mga shell habang siya ay naglalaba yun ang naalala kong masayang alala ko sa piling niya.

"Ano nagsusumbong ka na naman sa lola mo? akala mo tutulungan ka niya eh puro inom yun dun!"

 When I go to school I learned to forgot my problems because of my classmates and friends that makes me happy. There's a time I felt jealous of them because when we have groupings I met their parents they are really close to each other they not hurting and shouting each other. 

I always praying to God that all of happening to me is just a temporary and someday I overcome this.

I like places that makes me belong, 

places that so peaceful that  I can read all the time.

My mom she used to be like that she regretted that she had children at early age. She was not close to my Lola because she left me when I was little child.

I used to feel not feel anything when my birthday comes. I wish that I'm not come in this world and maybe in other universe I'm a bird that free to choose where I want to go.