What can I do without you

Chapter 1

PROBABLY MANY GRAMMAR/SPELLING
MISTAKES SORRY ><

POV: Liming
I stumbled into my house at 2am like I usually do these days, drunk and a mess. My uncle was on the couch waiting for me. He yells "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING LIMING, START LIVING YOUR LIFE SOON IF YOU EVEN GRADUATE WHAT WILL YOU DO? TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF YOU'RE NOT EVEN LEGALLY ALLOWED TO DRINK!"

I didn't really care though, it's been the same routine every day at least after Heart died. He was my everything, before I met him I was a huge mess. What was the best part was we were both fucked up by the world so we didn't need to hide what we actually felt together.

I stumbled up the stairs and face planted into my bed, the same bed Heart and I used to sleep in together. I start to sob, what the hell is wrong with me I think. Heart died when I allowed him to try and drive that damn motorcycle again for the second time. Everything was perfect, he became my boyfriend and we were going to go to America together.

Why why why did I let him get on the motercycle again. Heart was the only one who got me, the ONLY person who understood how much stress and anxiety i was under, my uncle is my guardian but didn't even notice anything out of the ordinary. My teacher told me I wasn't graduating anymore due to my grades taking another steep drop, not that I really cared that much.

"Heart I miss you so much." I sob out. I cry myself to sleep after that.

NEXT MORING

I drag myself out of bed and put on a different shirt. I stumble down stairs. Uncle is already down there with Phi Wen. They finally became a couple in the end. Sure I'm happy for them but at the same time I can't stand to see their couple thriving. Today I decide to seem more happy and energetic. "Hey Uncle and Phi!" I said in a cheerful tone. "I'm off to school now, I'll be late tonight so don't expect me for dinner!" I continue. "Ok Liming" Uncle Jim says in a hesitant tone. "Sorry for yelling at you last night I know how Hearts death has taken a toll on you.." Uncle Jim says. "No it's fine! I'm off to school!" I say with a smile on my face. Little does Uncle Jim know what happens later in the afternoon. I think Phi Wen noticed something was off but I left for school before he could say anything.

I sat through some of his lessons, but they were soooo boring you can't blame me for skipping again. I didn't want to go home because uncle Jim would just confront me on why I skipped again. The school said that if I missed one more class they'd have to get me expelled. Not that it anything would matter after today. I end up just walking around.

In an instant it becomes sunset I don't remember how long I've been walking around for. I arrive at my original destination that I planned to be at. The bridge where Heart and I last hung out. You can see an amazing view here. I start stepping over the ledge. "Heart you leaving this world is all my fault but I can't live without you. That's why I'm gonna join you. Then we'll all be happy, uncle will not have to deal with my dead weight and the school won't pester me about my future anymore. Good bye cruel world." I say with tear and a smile on my face.

Right before I jump off I hear a voice, "WAIT LIMING DON'T!" I turn around and it's Wen not my uncle but Wen. What could I expect though I thought that my uncle would finally be there for me for once but once again he's no where to be see only his boyfriend. "Why should I live Phi no one cares anymore, the only person that understood me died because of me. I'm only a curse to people in my life." I say my voice breaking. "Look liming I get it you lost your soulmate but there's plenty to live for! I care about you, so do Phi Jim and your mom!" Phi Wen says in a desperation. "NO YOU DON'T GET IT THOUGH! HE WAS EVERYTHING I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING PLANNED WITHOUT HIM! He-e was my motivation I couldn't move a finger before I met him, and now that he's gone I love for nothing." I say. "Can't be here anymore it's too much pressure, too much effort, too much stress and everything reminds me of him here." I can't stay here anymore, I'm sorry Phi Wen it's over." I say. With that I jump into oblivion. I hear Phi Wen shout NOOOO but I don't really care anymore I'm off to see my Heart.

I stir awake, I'm too scared to open my eyes what if my attempt failed. Finally I open my eyes. Relief floods into me as I realize I'm not on earth anymore but heaven. I adjust to the blinding whites of heaven and see him, the person I've been longing for, Heart. (LETS PRETEND THAT AFTER YOU DIE YOU REGAIN LOST SENSES)

"HEART! HEART!" I shout. He turns around and looks as beautiful as the first time I met him.
"L-liming is that really you?" Heart says in a husky voice. "Yes my love it's me I miss you so much, all the weeks without you have been hell on earth and I just couldn't live without you." I pull Heart in for a bear hug. He embraces me and we stay like that for at least 10 minutes.

"I'm sorry Heart, I made you go on that curtsied motorcycle again and you you died." I said holding back my sobs. Heart says, "Oh baby it's not your fault, wanted to ride it in the first place." I start rambling on, "But you died and I was the main cause and Heart your too young to die-" Heart cut me off with a deep kiss. "What's passed is the past. Right now let's give you a tour, sounds good?" Heart said with that goofy smile that I always missed. "Of course my love, let's go!" I say with the first genuine smile I've had since Heart died.
THE ENDDDD

AUTHORS NOTE
WOWIE THOSE ARE EMOTIONS I DIDNT KNOW I HAD! Anyways I'm probably going to do a bonus chapter in Wens POV showing what happens on earth after liming dies.