Diary of Darsy

Chapter one -Panic attacks

11 years later....

"Darsy?, Darsy!!" My teacher yelled.
"Huh?", I hummed after waking up from the trance like state I was in. I was called earlier to the front of the class for my presentation. But I was thinking about the past events of my whole life before my teacher Mrs Flora yelled my name out.
"Darsy dear, would you please proceed with your presentation. You've been standing here like this for the past 5 mins"
"Oh okay " I said then faced the crowd of people in front of me. I wanted to begin but I couldn't. Why were they looking at me like that, did I do something wrong, what's happening. I started breathing fast, their faces blurred, I saw only red. Seeing blood everywhere.
"Mom!!" I shouted continuously, I was hearing voices. I couldn't understand what was going on. Their laughing at me. Why are they laughing!!!. I knelt down on the ground while covering my ears.
I felt hands touching me, people calling my name out before I lost consciousness.

I woke up to the sounds of loud voices coming from the living room.I was in my house. I stood up from my bed and went to bathroom to wash my face. Standing in front of the bathroom mirror, was tired looking me. "Ugh I look horrible, I look like am from a freaking zombie apocalypse movie!!". I groaned at myself.
I haven't actually described myself. Okay so I have black hair with golden brown eyes. I am tall and slim. Most people say I am too tall for my age like super model tall. I have very attractive long legs which am proud of but I don't show them of at all. Guessing how I knew, my best friend told me Tracy told me. And I think I have a very A-okay figure meaning flat stomach, slim waist and a great shape. And lastly I have the skin color of my Dad, he's a black American, and my mom is white. She's British to be precised.

   Okay now back to where we stopped. I was busy cursing my current condition. And I quickly went to bath and  dress up. I wore a brown sweater and brown tights . Then I tied my hair into a high ponytail, put on some Vaseline on my lips and quickly headed downstairs to see what was the cause of the noise.
  Only to see my Dad and my school principal Mrs Meredith arguing.
  " Listen Meredith, am sorry for what happened today, I promise I would take care of it". My Dad said. "It's Mrs Meredith to you Mr Paris. And I said I think Darsy needs help. I cannot guarantee her not having another panic attack yet again. It's the fourth time these week. It's been happening a lot since she resumed this school. Is there anything going on with her mentally, cause she keeps saying Mom everytime this happens. Where is her mother ?".
   " Listen Mer- I mean Mrs Meredith. Her mother is..."
" Dead " I answered ever so boldly. " My Mom is dead Mrs Meredith. Sorry for the interruption, is there a problem?"
  "Dear there is no problem but.." Mrs Meredith said before my dad interrupted " Darsy, what are you doing down here, go back inside darling".
"No Dad, I want to know what's going on".
" Mr Paris, why didn't you tell me her mum is no longer alive. This explains what's been happening. She needs to see a doctor or a therapist. Your love alone cannot make everything alright you know".
  " My daughter is perfectly alright and doesn't need to see anyone. Besides we are moving ".
"What!!!" I shouted. " What do you mean by we are moving Dad. We recently just moved here and now we are moving!. I have literally just made a friend after much difficulty and my grades are finally getting better. I would soon be entering senior year. This is so bad for my study life".
  " Dear, you know how this is, everything right now is a mess. You know we can't stay in a place for too long. Try to understand Darsy".
  " Mr Paris, I know I have no business in your personal life. But I think Darsy needs a support system right now. A mother figure or something you know. A therapist, a doctor, Someone other than you right now, would be very favourable to her. All this moving around does more harm than good. But anyways I would take my leave now. I have said what I needed to say. If your decision for moving is final please inform me. Goodbye Darsy, it was nice having you at our school".
  "Goodbye Mrs Meredith" I said. As she leaves the house. That would definitely be the last time I would be seeing my  dear principal. Then I turned to my Dad.
  " I am not leaving here Dad and that's final".
  "Well sorry honey but my decision is already made. Pack your bags, we moving to Los Angeles by tomorrow morning.
  I need to get my career back in track. It's been years since I've been on the screen, so try to understand darling".
"Wow ( I scoffed), it really is like this huh?, I hate you Dad". I said and ran upstairs with tears in my eyes.
    I quickly took my phone from my bed and called Tracy. I had to tell her this heart breaking news . We probably might not see each other again after this. It rang three times before she picked up.
  " Hi babe, I heard you had another panic attack today, are you okay now?" I heard her say over the phone. "Hey Tracy I am feeling better now thank you, um I have something to tell you" I said.
"Alright, what is it?" She said
"Um, well I um.., I'm moving" I said while holding my breath.
" What?, Moving like how, is it to a new apartment?. I don't understand girl.
  " No Trace, it's to a whole new city, am moving to LA by tomorrow morning. I know it's so sudden but-.
"Ahhhhhhhh!!" I heard her scream over the phone. " What kind of Joke is this Darsy!!, Please tell me you're lying. You can't leave, not now I mean why the sudden decision to leave! "
"I understand Tracy, believe me I do not want to leave. But as always my Dad Putting himself first every time. He came up with the sudden decision for us to leave. Trust me if there was anything I could do to stop this, I would've already but there is no changing my Dad's mind. I am so used to this that anytime this happens, I don't even bother to cry anymore. It wouldn't make a difference anyways".
  " Omg Darsy, this is so sad, I can't believe your dad is separating us like this. How am I going to survive without you here. If I could, I would come over right now and spend the night with you before you leave tomorrow. But my Mom's not feeling well so I have to take care of her this evening. Am going to miss you so much my Darsy. Am going to text you everyday, when you're in LA".
  " Am going to miss you too Trace. And I think it's the opposite when you said you can't survive without me, I am the one who won't survive a day there without Tracy by my side. Don't worry about me, you should take care of your Mom. I love you so much girl, and am going to be expecting your calls and texts messages every day when am there".
  "Aww Darsy, I love you too!!. Don't worry I promise I'll always keep in touch. And If any of those spoilt brats in LA dares to look for your trouble, just call me and I'll be there in a jiffy to kick their sorry asses".
  " ( I chuckled loudly) that's so sweet Trace, but I really don't need you travelling all the way from here to LA to beat up some bullies for me. I promise to take care of myself alright. I love you ".
" Okay fine, I love you too Darsy. Please call me when you're leaving tomorrow alright?, Good bye dear. Make sure you don't overthink too much and sleep well".
" Okay my sweet Tracy, I promise to call you tomorrow morning and to sleep well this night. Good bye Trace ".
" Bye Darsy, sweet dreams Muah 💋".
  "Bye Trace and you too". I said as I ended the call and flopped on my bed. Thinking about what awaits me the next day before dozing off.