Johnnie Guilbert One Shots!

Saved - Hurt/Comfort

Since this is the first chapter I'm gonna give you a little back story on me. I started on wattpad in like 2019-2021, went to ao3(Arciveofyourown) for a few years, and now I'm coming back to wattpad to give yall a little treat. I don't want to brag but I feel like my writing has improved immensely, so don't base it off my older works please. You are welcome to read them, just don't get to disturbed. I was also like to say I was like 12/13 when I wrote those.

I'm a 16 year old gay trans man, my name is Alan. Not Allen, or Allan, Alan. My pronouns are strictly he/him/his, so please do not use they/them/theirs on me. It makes me uncomfortable. I support it, it's just not for me.

Please don't be scared by my 'professional demeanor', I have just been dealing with the media ever since I was 11 and have learned it's better to act professional when explaining things. Also I'm just as silly as you are, I promise 😉

Thank you for reading if you did so, now let's get onto the story preview.

This one is angsty, I feel like its pretty hard hitting so be careful out there! Also the angst part is pretty short, so don't be scared off either!
!TW¡
- Implied suicide attempts
- Suicide talk
- Mental hospital mention
- Crying Johnnie :( (poor bby)
- Self-esteem issues
- Negative self talk
- Nicotine
Other
- Demi romantic Johnnie
- Pansexual Johnnie
- Bi curious Jake
- Emotional Johhnie
- Autistic Jake (We love Jakey poo)

Jake/Johnnie

DISCLAIMER! I do not ship these to IRL. I do not believe they are queer. This is simply a fanfic. Also if you see any TW I didn't put, please let me know in the comments.
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Johnnie:

Jake saved me. Ever since we worked on KMS together we got really close. Ever since that faithful April in 2022 I haven't wanted to leave as much. The closer we get the less my depression affects me. He has no idea I have depression. He never will. He'll never know how much he means to me. He'll never know how inlove love I am with him.

It's not easy to not catch feelings for Jake Webber. He's kind. He's understanding. He's relatable. He's adorable. He never says no to a fan asking for a picture. He's never forgetting to ask if they want a picture with me too. Not to mention he's hot as fuck.

Jake Webber is my savior. Jake Webber is the love of my life. Jake Webber is the one for me.
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Jake and I were having a movie night. Well I was watching the movie and he was sleeping. Like always. We were watching the notebook. I picked this movie because I planned on telling him tonight. If I don't do it now I never do it.

I shook Jake slightly, trying to wake him up. When that didn't work I yelled his name, making him jump awake.

"What the fuck dude? I was sleeping good too.." Jake said, obviously annoyed.

"Sorry man," I cringed at my choice of words, "I just really need to tell you something, if I don't do it now I never will."

Jake looked at me wearily, he then sat up.

"What.. What is it?" He said, the concern never leaving his eyes.

"Ok., so it's kind of a long story. Ok I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when I was 14. I have been hospitalized 3 times. Once when I was 14, then when I was 18. The last time I went I was 24. 4 months before I met you. The date I had planned to kill myself was a week after you texted. You saved me Jake. Every hour I'm with you, I feel my depression fading away slowly. You make me happy Jake. Basically what I'm trying to get at is that your my best friend and.."I paused after I realized what I was about to tell him.

"And.. what??" The other boy asked desperately.

"And.. and I'm in love with you!" I shut my eyes tight. I couldn't bear to look at the man who was about to reject me. I didn't realize that I had just ruined our friendship right then.

I realized there were tears streaming down my face. God I'm such a pussy.

I also realized that Jake's hand was cupping my face, wiping the tears. When I finally got the courage to open my eyes, I could see Jake smiling at me. Why was he smiling? Was he happy he finally got the chance to leave our friendship? I knew he hated me this whole time.

I had to know why, "Why the fuck are you smiling?" I asked a little more aggressively than I meant to.

"Wow, calm your tits buddy. I'm smiling because I know. I knew ever since your feelings started. I might have even known before you knew, which is kinda funny. You're so obvious it's surprising the media hasn't caught on, and some of them have already."

"What?? How am I that obvious?" I asked, this was going differently than I expected.

"Well, you never take your eye off me when I speak for one. You blush whenever I give you head kisses. You almost always ask to hit my nic(vape/cigarette) when you know I have a wet ass mouth. Also, we cuddle. I don't think straight guys cuddle with their homies if they're actually straight." He said. He removed his hand from my face, as I had finished crying.

"Ok.. well, I thought you were a straight guy? Hell I thought I was too." I smiled to myself a little bit. I've only ever liked girls, if I liked anyone at all. I could only ever fall for the people I was close with.

"Well, I'm open to experimenting. I've never been opposed to being with a guy, I've just never found the right one. Until you. I like you too Johnnie. I have for a while, I realized a little after I realized you liked me. I wasn't opposed to the idea."

I wanted to kiss him so bad. I thought I ruined everything, but turns out he liked me too! This was crazy.

"Can-Can I kiss you? Please?" I rambled. I guess my mouth was moving faster than my thoughts.

Jake smiled warmly at me, then put his hand back on my cheek. He leaned in and kissed me. I froze for a moment before kissing him back.

This was what I wanted for 2 years. This was what I needed for 2 years.

We kissed for a good minute before resting and leaning our foreheads together.

I was smiling like an idiot. I hadn't felt this way since Alex. I missed this.

"So.. what would you like to be?" Jake asked, making eye contact with me. I blushed.

"Um.. if you would want.. I'd like to be yours, and for you to be mine."

"Damn, such a romantic way to say you want to be my boyfriend." He joked.

"Oh shut the fuck up. You know what I meant." I said, playing around.

"Ok.. well, I guess we're boyfriends now!"

I laugh, "I suppose."

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6/30/24