I never stopped loving you..

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* trigger warning homophobia and f slur* 

I'm currently sitting at my vanity getting ready to meet with Ari. but she doesn't know that this is the last time we will ever be meeting up like this...I'm leaving abroad to Europe in a week and my plan is to just leave her and all of this behind me so I can move on from this point in my life. I began to put on some light makeup and lip gloss. When I'm finished I grab my keys and tell my parents I'm going out. 

When I arrive at ari's place I suddenly feel queasy not knowing if I should go through with doing this. I text her and tell her I'm here. She meets me at the door with a bright smile. "You Look so beautiful baby like you always do" I feel a slight blush on my face due to her compliment "thank you, um..Ariya I need to talk to you." her smile dropped for a moment "oh ok what is it'' I sat down on her bed and took a deep breath and gathered my words preparing myself for what i'm about to tell her. "Ariya the last few months have been amazing" I start "but.. we can't do this anymore I just don't like girls that way. I think I just wanted to experiment a little to see if I liked it." her face was in full awe like she was in utter shock of what Id just told her. "Get out! I can't do this again. After what I told you about my ex and everything?! just for you to do the same shit that she did. I am so stupid for letting you In" Ariya falls to the ground in heartbreak not knowing how to feel. I suddenly felt nothing but anger " THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT YOU MADE ME LIKE YOU YOU MADE ME FEEL LIKE THIS! you are disgusting you are nothing but some loser Faggot!" she couldnt believe what she was hearing after all they had been through with each other.. "GET THE FUCK OUT I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE, I HATE YOU" she yelled with nothing but tears streaming down her face. 

 I stepped back from her and when I leave her room all I can hear are her sobs. I then exited her home. when I got back in my car I began to break down not knowing how to feel.. when I was growing up I was told liking the same gender was a sin something you could never be forgiven for.  when I first saw Ariya I felt like something had just ignited in me it felt like I was almost drawn to her. I tried my best to fight the feeling knowing it's wrong. but now I know I can't like girls its not true. Im disgusted with myself for even kissing her.. touching her skin, letting her touch me. letting her inflitrate my mind and making it inpure.  making me want her like some kind of sucubus. After I collected myself I drove back to my home. When I got in my room I began to pack for my trip. I felt numb I can't believe I said those horrible things to her. but I have to get over it theres nothing I can do now but focus on my trip.. 

- Hii everyone I know the chapter is a little short but this is only the beggining of their story and I hope you come back for the next chapter!