19/yo Gianna is studying at Harvard, one her friends who is a Billie Eilish fan invited Gianna to join her for the concert. Things take a turn though read to find out...
" AMARA POUR ME MORE WINE PLEASE" Gianna says waving her wine glass.
"damn save some for me" Amara says pouring me another glass.
we watch some twilight while eating some oreos. idk what amara has with oreos, she never stops eating them. I tried not eating as many because girl i'm not trying to go to the store because of what happened. (iykyk) I haven't talked to billie for like 2 weeks, she hasn't answered my calls or messages.
she doesn't call me ma anymore which is kinda strange but im just letting it slide, she's probably traumatized of what happened that night. ay i get it she probably wants me to spend time alone. she kinda got a bit upset because i didn't tell amara about us so i lowkey understand why she isn't talking to me.
I start scrolling on Instagram bored as hell while Amara is upstairs asleep. i scroll more and i land on a photo that was taken 2 hours ago. believe it or not it was billie with someone else.
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(PRETEND SHE HAS GREEN ROOTS)
I stare at the picture my heart literally sinking. I start sobbing and throwing shit everywhere. "G WHAT THE FUCK CALM DOWN WHATS WRONG" Amara says looking at me terrified of what i've done" I throw my phone at her, she looks at the picture blankly.
"g omg im so sorry" Amara says coming towards me. I push her and grab my phone and car keys. "g where tf are you going?" Amara says running after me. "I'll be right back" i say grabbing my taser and walking out the door. "G STOP" Amara says as im reversing and driving away.
When I got to billies mansion I knocked on the door. no one answered so i picked the lock open with my hair pin. I tiptoed thru billie's house trying so hard not to make a noise. I make my way to billie's bedroom and the door is slightly open where i see billie and you guessed it jesse making out.
my blood started boiling like crazy, i tied my hair back and grabbed my taser. I burst into the room, Billie gets startled and pushes jesse off her. "Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O'Connell" i say while my voice cracks holding in my tears.
jesse tries to run out of the room when he saw that i had a taser. I grabbed him by the collar. "be a good boy and get on your knees" i say not caring if billie heard or not. I go into billie's closet and find 2 of my skinny belts and wrap it around his neck and arms. "stay in here" i say caressing his hair. I point at billie and motion her to follow me.
we make it to the kitchen and i grab her by the throat and whisper in her ear, "cheating on me i see hmm?" i say looking at billie.
"me and you aren't even a fucking thing i don't why you think we are stupid hoe" Billie says pushing me back making me trip over a stool. "so im nothing to you huh billie?" i say holding in tears.
" i can't fucking live without you and you fucking know that shit bro" i say crying. " i hate you bro, you made me feel so fucking stupid thinking you actually loved me billie." "i've done so many things i wouldn't do for a person. I've lied and done things so it wouldn't ruin our "relationship" i say quoting with my fingers.
"i don't deserve this billie, i can't even look at you right now i really wish this was all a dream" i say getting up from the ground and taking off a special necklace billie gave to me the first week we met.
I saw the hurt in billie's eyes as i took the necklace off and dropped it on the ground. but i don't fucking care anymore, clearly she didnt love me if she cheated on me with that guy. "you guys should go and finish what you were doing" i said walking out of her house.
I get into my car and drive off and think about what just happened, she didn't even try to hide what she did. I turn my phone on and gasp.
*50 missed calls from Amara<3*
shit shes gonna kill me literally, I get to the gas station and grab some oreos and some hot cheetos and walk back to my car and i drive to my apartment.
I unlock the apartment door and there i see Amara with a angry and worried look on her face. "G WHERE TF WHERE YOU AND WHAT WERE YOU DOING?" Amara says going off on me. "I had to get some things straight" i say throwing the pack of oreos at her.
"what did you do to billie?" Amara said sternly.
"nothing really just tied up her new "boyfriend" and cursed tf outta her that's all" i said nonchalantly.
"g why do you always choose violence" Amara says eating her oreos.
I shrugged and poured myself a glass of wine and made my way to my bedroom. " Im tired im going to bed goodnight" i say grabbing the whole bottle of wine.
"alright goodnight g" Amara says watching her show.
I set the wine bottle on my dresser and look through my phone and see messages from billie saying she didn't mean what she said blah blah blah, fucking liar if she actually loved me she wouldn't have cheated on me.
I scroll thru insta seeing people tagging me in pictures of billie and that jesse guy, it fucking hurts me i fucking trusted her and she just broke it like meant nothing to her. I wish this was all a fucking dream.
I swipe thru my camera roll and look at pictures of me and Billie together, we looked so happy together, i really miss my baby but i can never forgive her this easily, she broke my heart and made me look stupid the whole time we knew each other.
I grab my journal and start writing down lyrics, my eyes watering like crazy, I start singing part of what I wrote and fixing some lyrics.
