Blood Stained Kiss.

Kissed.. Again.

It's been a week since Joe died and it's been awful.. don't get me wrong! I'm glad he's dead, sort of, but everything is going to shit. My mom drinks more than ever and we have no groceries.
I'd also been avoiding Alonzo, I didn't know what to do after the kiss. I really like him and it hurts to avoid him but I'm just not sure.
Today's monday and I have to go back to school now.
I put on my grey hoodie and some black sweat pants after I get ready and go to school.
I hardly spoke to my friends too, I'm still shaken by seeing the dead body of my step dad.
Once I walked into school I sneakily made my way to my classes and locker.
I had to go to computer class now. I didn't want to.
I hid in the bathroom for the first 10 minutes.
Once I was ready I walked to the classroom.
The teacher walked up to me and scolded me for being late.
I apologized and walked over to my friends.
"Um, hi guys." I mumbled.
They stared at me with blank expressions.
"I'll explain why I've hardly spoken to you two. If you'll allow me." I informed them.
"Fine. Sit." Bri told me.
I nodded and sat down. I looked around for Alonzo. He wasn't here.
I sighed and began.
"So.. last week I found Joe, dead. Horribly. I don't even want to explain it.." I shivered as the vision of him came back to me.
"And I asked Alonzo to come over. He did, and after the police left and took Joe's body, me and Alonzo.. we kissed. I liked it, I think? But I couldn't, not after I saw Joe like that. So I made him leave and I've avoided him too. I wasn't sure what to do, I've missed you girls and I hope you two can forgive me." I finish, taking a breath.
Their mouths hang open.
"WHAT?! YOU DIDN'T TELL US ANY OF IT??" Bri yelled.
I nodded.
After they thought for a bit they looked at each other and nodded.
"We forgive you." Ava smiled.
I smiled and hugged both of them.
"So you DO like Alonzo." Bri snickered.
I felt my face get hot and i nodded.
"I think so.." I muttered.
"Why don't you tell him?" Ava asked.
"I don't know. I'm scared." I told them.
"Just think about it, and try." Bri smiled.
I nodded.

After school I went straight home and found my mom was gone.
I sighed and went to my room.
I looked outside, through my window and the sky looked dull. It seemed like it was about to rain.
I opened my window for a breather and leaned on the window frame.
It was kind of windy and the soft comforting smell of rain hit me hard.
After about 5 minutes it started to rain.
I shut my window. and sit in my bed.
It was so quiet.
I didn't like it, yes I love it being quiet, but it's different this time.
I lay on my bed and listened to the rain while scrolling through all the msgs Alonzo has sent me.
Alonzo
Vivian, are you okay?
Vivian please answer me.
You haven't answered for a week, I'm worried about you..
If you don't answer I'm coming over.
Vivian, I need to talk to you.
Vivian, your friends said they haven't heard from you either.
You know you can talk to me, right?

He sent more but I just turned my phone off.
I sat my phone down, I'm worried about my mom.
I haven't seen her around at all.
I don't even know where she goes when she's not home.
I went downstairs to get a glass of water.
I haven't drank or eaten much of anything.
The cold water felt nice and refreshing.
I had my eyes thinking for a moment, I sighed and put the glass in the sink then went back upstairs.
Once I went back upstairs I opened my closet. While I was looking I heard a bang.
I jumped and fell backwards as I tripped over my own feet.
I heard what sounded like my window opening, I looked over and saw a guy climbing through my window. I froze completely my heart racing, am I about to die? Am I about to be robbed?
Once they were completely in my window I realized it was just Alonzo.
"What are you-.." I paused, he was soaked.
I got off of my floor and examined him.
He wore black jeans and a black t-shirt, his dark fluffy hair had been completely soaked by the rain and was now dripping onto his face and my carpet. He had water dripping from his face, his nose, and chin.
I walked past him and over to my window, I looked around and didn't see a car.
"Did you.. Walk here?" I asked him.
I turned around and stared at him he didn't answer me he just stared at me.
"Alonzo?" I whispered.
He got close to me slowly, once he got close enough he pulled me into a hug.
I hugged him back as I smelt the familiar smell of his cologne and also the damp smell of rain mixed in together.
I sighed and hugged him tighter, I kind of missed him.
"You've been gone for so long, Vivian.." Alonzo whispered so quietly, I could hardly hear him.
"I know.. I'm sorry, I just.. I needed some time to think about everything, I should've texted you." I apologized as I looked up at him.
He looked down at me and looked down at my lips.
I knew he wanted to kiss me, but he wouldn't.
I don't blame him last time he kissed me I pushed him away and didn't answer him for a week.
I rested my head onto his chest and held him close.
"I've missed you, Vivian." He told me.
I looked up at him and smiled.
"I've missed you too." I mumbled.
We stared at each other for a bit, his eyes jumping down to my lips every few seconds.
"Vivian, can I.." He paused.
I thought for a moment then nodded.
He slowly inched closer to me.
His forehead touching mine.
He stopped for a moment before moving his lips onto mine.
I shut my eyes as he kissed me, my heart beating fast, butterflies forming in my stomach.
He pulled away, only for a second though.
He kissed me again and his hands found their way to my waist.
I moved my hands up to his neck and wrapped them around.
He pulled away and kissed my cheek then smiled at me.
I stared at him while breathing heavily, then I noticed he wasn't breathing heavily at all. I don't think he was even breathing.
"I've wanted to kiss you for so long.." Alonzo whispered.
"You did last week." I chuckled.
He shrugged and kissed me again before pulling me into a hug again.
I remembered he walked here and he must be cold.
"Are you cold?" I asked Alonzo.
"No, not really." He told me.
"Are you sure." I asked him again, concerned.
He nodded and smiled softly.

After a while we sat on my couch downstairs and watched a movie. Alonzo was holding my hand and rubbing it with his thumb. I started to realize how cold his hand was.
"Alonzo.. Why is your hand so cold??" I asked.
"Oh.. Uh. I'm not sure it feels warm to me.." He whispered as he pulled his hand away.
"Why'd you-" I began until he cut me off.
"Hey, I have to go." He said as he got up off my bed.
He walked towards my window as I stood up and walked over to him.
"What, why?" I asked quickly.
He turned to face me and smiled.
He grabbed my hands and kissed my forehead.
"I'll see you tomorrow, okay? Just text me. I'll answer." He told me as he let go of my hands and climbed out of my window.
I sighed and sat on my bed.
I'll see him tomorrow, I smiled thinking of the kiss he gave me earlier.
I hope nothing messes us up.