on the naughty list..

Chapter 1

Y/N POV

It was the night before Christmas and I was getting ready to take my flight to my home town sitting there I wait for my gate number to be called for boarding I look at our old family house where we were standing outside as a whole family the photo was taken by our neighbors who was the most nicest people on earth

Almost half the family scratched out of the picture I sigh at the sight and put my phone away as I hear my gate number being called I put my phone in my purse and stand up gathering all my stuff I pull out my suitcase handle as I stand up I stretch my legs and start to make my way to the line dragging my suitcase behind me as I walk slowly to my gate

Standing in the line I take out my ticket and passport and wait for the line to move I give the lady the ticket and she gives it back I walk down the long hallway stepping into the plane I make my way up to the first class part of the plane as I sit by the window seat the lady takes my bag and but it in the suitcase holder thing not sure what you call it but okay

I sit in my seat and lean back relaxing into the soft seat putting my head back looking out the window for a while as the lady announced to put on our seat belts I snap mine in place and then we're on our way to Los Angeles feeling anxious to go back home after 4 years is nerve wrecking the reason I haven't gone home well

Guilt....

Guilts the answer.....

Regret

Pain

And sorrow

The things I did ate me up from the inside I was stupid I was 16 I did what I did for a reason protection if you may say

I wasn't the problem no never no one can blame me for what I did I was oblivious to what I did and do I regret it maybe but it made me stronger mentally and physically

Am I fine physically yes but mentally I might be fucked up in the head a little but that's okay that's what makes me..... Well me it makes me myself and if someone has a fucking problem with it I don't have two fucks left to give

I was broken I still am broken hope lost and love left but if there was a possibility out there to be someone who can actually love again then maybe I'll take it I'd rather believe in love from books that's all place it exists

Love isn't real well not to me anymore the lies the pain the fucking betrayal I felt I gave my everything yet here I am

A messed up piece of art.....

I snap out of my thoughts when someone talks to me

*miss is there anything I can get for you*the flight attendant asks me with a smile looking tired she stands there with her tray of food or more like a cart I look up at her and smile slightly

"just an coffee and pretzels please" I say politely she nods and walks away after some time she comes back and gives me the coffee and pack of pretzels

"thanks" I say as she nods and walks away to the next seat I slowly sip my coffee and look over the city we are flying over the city is dark as It is 3 am in the morning only seeing a few small lights knowing it's still a long way to go I finish my coffee and pretzels and put my seat back and put on my eye mask along with my pillow I throw my blanket over myself and go to sleep

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Later that night I wake up by an ear aching alarm at the front of the plane everyone in distress including myself but less than the others me being confused I look out of the small window to see up plummeting to the ground snow forest everywhere trees end to end

I panic and look around where us passangers are I grip my seat being odly calm at this moment aside from heart thumping in my chest I'm quite calm as we near the ground the stewardess tries to reassure everyone that everyone will be calm and alright almost everyone has their oxygen masks on I sit there gripping my chair  and closing my eyes

After a minute or so I open it again and as if everything was muted and happening in slow motion the wings of the plane starts touching the trees of the wide spread forest starting trails of broken trees the wings catch fire and the nose of the plane starts to dip into the earth of the ground hard the plane splits in half breaking of from the front the nose part hits the ground hard

I doubt if anyone was alive because after the plane catched fire and left an explosion I dont believe there was anyone alive the back side of the plabe that me and other was in was next to hit the ground as hard as the nose did somehow my seat belt snapped and sitting in front of the half of the backside of the ane did not help at all I fly out and get thrown into the trees slowly falling to the ground branches hit me in the face,ribs and legs as well as my arms knowing that certainly im gonna have nasty cuts and bruises

I come closer to the ground and my eyes land on the plane I was in
It hits the ground and has the same fate as the front of the plane exploding into pieces my head comes into contact with the soft but hard forest the last thing I see is 7 weird looking things looking at me weirdly it's only their shadows I could see but it didn't look pleasant at all

Oh god help me.......

(my second book yasssssss love you allll)