Average (Jinx x Fem!Reader)

7. Reveal

I braced my body, waiting for her response. I couldn't believe I just admitted it...out loud...to her. My body was pulsating, screaming, crying—I was all over the place.

"Really?" Her voice was a mix of surprise and curiosity, tinged with a hint of excitement. It was as if she was seeing me in a new light. "I never would have guessed."

"It's sort of a...new discovery." I shifted my eyes to the left to glance at her, my head still turned to the right. She was looking right at me, a slight smile on her lips.

"That's awesome. Who's the lucky girl?"

My heart slammed against my ribcage. I could see my pulse in my eyes with how rapidly it was beating. I took a deep breath, trying to steady myself. Just fucking say it. You might never get the chance to again, coward. I licked my dry lips, my eyes staring at her black tapestry on the ceiling.

"You," I whispered, the word barely escaping my lips.

Jinx's eyes widened in surprise before her smile grew wider. She leaned in closer, her voice soft and playful. "Oh? Me?"

My cheeks held the heat of the sun, the warmth spreading across my face. "I...I hope I didn't make things awkward between us," I stammered, still unable to fully meet her gaze.

"Awkward?" Jinx laughed lightly. "Not at all. In fact, quite the opposite." She reached out and gently touched my arm, her fingers warm and reassuring. "You don't have to be scared. I'm glad you told me."

A wave of relief washed over me, followed by a jolt of electricity as her fingertips met my skin. I finally turned my head to look at her directly, meeting her bright eyes. This was not how I imagined this playing out. "You...you're not upset?"

"Upset? Why would I be upset?" She snorted, her smile full of genuine warmth.

"I-I don't know...I never confessed to anyone before. I thought if I told you, you would've been grossed out or stopped talking to me."

Jinx's smile softened, and she gave my arm a gentle squeeze. "What?! I definitely wouldn't have, that'd be silly."

Her playful demeanor turned slightly more serious, but her warmth remained. "It's actually kind of special, don't ya think? Discovering new things about yourself. And," she added with a wink, "I'm flattered to be part of that discovery."

I wanted to levitate. She fucking winked at me? What did that mean? I felt a mixture of relief and nervous excitement, my heart still beating out of my chest. The pit in my stomach only grew larger.

Jinx's smile returned, bright and mischievous. "I assume that means you've never kissed a girl before?" She leaned back, her playful grin reappearing.

My brain short-circuited at the mention of a kiss. The way she was looking at me gave me a glint of hope. I shook my head, my heart swelling with a newfound sense of optimism and anticipation.

"No..." My voice trailed off.

My chest felt heavy from the sudden tension in the air. Jinx moved closer to me, the distance between us now scarce. My lungs struggled to inflate as my breaths grew shallow. What the fuck was happening?

Jinx stared at me with hooded eyes, her dark eyeshadow and eyeliner accentuating her features. She was absolutely striking, especially this close. I could quite literally stare at her all day long.

"Did you want to?" She said softly.

I swallowed hard, my throat dry. She wanted to...kiss me? Kiss her? Kiss?! My lips on hers? Her lips on mine? My brain officially melted. My IQ went from 115 to 15. I didn't know what to do with myself. All I could do was gawk, my eyes blinking rapidly. If someone walked in, completely unaware of what was just discussed, they would have thought I received the most shocking news of my life...I kind of did.

Jinx's eyes softened even more, and she gave me a small, reassuring smile. I looked at her and then her lips, repeat. They looked so soft. I absolutely wanted to, I just couldn't get the words out. All I could manage was a small nod, my jaw muscles clenching.

She extended her hand outwards, her fingers brushing a few loose strands out of my face. Her touch was calming, grounding me in the moment. I took a shaky breath, trying to steady myself. The 0.01 probability I previously predicted sky rocketed to a 99.99 percentile.

Jinx leaned in slowly, giving me time to pull away if I wanted to. I didn't. I couldn't. I was paralyzed with immense exhilarating fear. I closed my eyes, allowing myself to savor the moment. As her lips brushed against mine, the world seemed to stop. The kiss was gentle, tentative, yet it sent a jolt of electricity through my entire being. Her perfume was intoxicating. Her lips were so plump and warm.

She pulled back after what seemed like hours, tucking a few strands of her hair behind her ear, a light blush on her cheeks. My lips were still tingling from her kiss.

"How was that?" Jinx questioned, her voice slightly husky as she cleared her throat. She seemed flustered as well.

"Better than I imagined..." I breathed, my desire for more evident in my tone.

"Oh? You thought about this before?" Jinx's blush deepened, a sly smile spreading across her lips.

"Uhhh..." I turned my head away, feeling embarrassment creeping in once again. Jinx gently placed her thumb and index finger on my chin, turning my face back to hers, and kissed me once more.

My anxiety began to melt away as I wrapped my arms around her neck, deepening our kiss. I was intoxicated by her. The way she made my body feel was indescribable. I couldn't get enough of her. The only thing on my mind was her and her perfect lips.

She pulled back again, her face still close to mine, her chest visibly rising and falling with each breath. The look in her eyes was intense, her pupils dominating her irises.

"I like you," she said bluntly.

Her declaration hung in the air between us, charged with raw emotion and vulnerability. I couldn't believe my eyes or ears. Jinx, our schools most sought after girl, was into me. Out of all the people in our school, she liked me? A normie? I was astonished. Never would I have EVER imagined this happening.

"You do?" I questioned, obviously stunned. My eyes searched hers while I anxiously awaited her response.

"Yeah...you're cute." She smiled warmly, her thumb stroking my cheek. I could have expired right then and there.

I broke eye contact, shifting my gaze to the right. I didn't know what to say, other than the obvious. I should be on top of the world, yet, oddly enough, I felt slightly conflicted. My self esteem plummeted as my viscous sea of dark thoughts bubbled within my brain.

"Why?" I replied, barely above a whisper.

"Why what?" She continued to stroke my cheek gently.

"Why do you think I'm cute... I'm just bland." My eyes felt hot, tears threatening to spill. Jinx looked at me somberly, her eyes softening as they met mine.

"What," she chuckled weakly, her head cocked to the side, "You're not bland at all. You're super cute."

As much as I wanted to believe her, I found it difficult to wrap my head around, even if the words were coming from her mouth. In response, I managed a faint smile, desperately wanting to change the subject. I hadn't expected these feelings to arise.

Jinx, as if she read my mind, kissed my lips a third time, silencing my negative thoughts momentarily. "Well, I think you are." My heart swelled with affection. If she kissed me a few more times, I just might actually believe her.

"I like you too." I finally said. My hand trembled as I gently placed my hand on hers.

"I couldn't tell." She grinned.

I traced small circles on top of her hand, enjoying the feel of her velvety skin, unsure of what to say. We kissed multiple times. What did that mean? Was it just for my gain? To help me figure myself out? It certainly made me realize I did in fact like girls. Boys now seemed way less appealing, if not insignificant to a woman—especially her.

Or was she kissing me and telling me I'm cute because she truly did like me? She did say it after all. I said it back. But, what did that mean for us? I channeled my inner Calista, gathering every ounce of courage I had. I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Pussy.

"Wanna mess around?" Jinx blurted.