MY LOVE IS ALL MINE, ALL MINE

The Beginning.

—part one

pairing: Lucifer Morningstar x angel! fem! reader

fandom: Hazbin Hotel

genre: semi-angst

Note: angst cause i like angst XD.

Lucifer paced back and forth in his chambers, avoiding the piles of rubber ducks as he anxiously bit his nails. He had just opened the portal for his daughter to enter heaven for a meeting. He never felt this much fear in his whole life, he's worried for her daughter—he fears the higher beings would crush her the same way they had crushed him.

“I am sure she'll be fine...”

He mutters, his eyes landing on the picture frame of him and charlie that's on his table—beside his newly created fire breathing rubber duck. It's not fine, Charlie is his pride and joy. He wants to preserve her smile and shelter her but she's a grown woman now and he regrets missing out on her life as he was busy wallowing in self pity.

Lucifer's shoulders hung low as he let out a long and tired sigh, his legs brought him to the balcony of his chambers, grabbing his newly made fire breathing rubber duck in the process, pushing the doors open and leaning against the railings, placing the duck on the railings.

“Now that I've thought about it, I made so many regrets in life.”

He mutters sadly, his eyes gazing at the smoke filled skies of hell. He couldn't see any stars or moon. He remembers when he was still up there, always gazing up in the sky with,

"[y/n]....”

Says sadly. She was the only angel who believed in him, who agrees with him. They were best friends, he used to fly around the skies with her. She was one of the first few angels God created, he is one of those angels of course. His the one that got away.

“....and with that, I think humans should have free will, they shouldn't be stuck following so many rules.”

Lucifer mutters, avoiding the gaze of his best friend,

"I know, you probably think it's idiotic to think like tha—”

His voice was cut off as the girl beside him placed a shushing finger over his lips. His wings fluttered from the contact of her skin against his lips, cheeks heating up slightly.

"Don't think like that, your dreams for mankind are amazing and I agree, too many rules aren't fun.”

[y/n] giggles softly as she removes her finger away from his lips.

At that moment, Lucifer was able to gaze at her smiling face. Her three pairs of wings flutter behind her—so warm whenever she hugs him, her hair perfectly framing her face—so soft to touch, the golden halo on top of her head—like a crown, her beautiful smiling face—especially her lips, he wonders what it feels like against his own. Oh god, he's falling for her isn't he?

Lucifer shakes his head, he shouldn't be thinking inappropriate thoughts about her. He just composed himself and pretended his golden heart isn't pounding so hard against his ribcage.

Lucifer laughs softly, gazing at the city of hell.

“I wonder what would've happened if I didn't back out of my confession that day, she looked excited too..”

he wonders.

“[y/n], can I please talk to you... Alone.”

Lucifer nervously says as he looked at the female angel before him, he had to take a deep breath in hopes of his beating heart to calm down for a second or else he'll end up with a heart attack.

“Oh? You needed me for something?”

She asked him gently with a smile, he would've responded

“I needed you in my life”

If he had the confidence,

“I just needed to talk to you, that's all.”

He answered meekly and [y/n] was worried because he seemed nervous, she nodded and followed him to an area where there were no other angels.

“Is there something wrong?”

[y/n] asked him softly, holding his hands. Her hands were soft against his own. He avoided her gaze and he could hear his heart thumping loudly in his chest. This is it.

“I just wanted to tell you that...”

He pauses, voice shaking. [Y/n] looked at him expectantly,

"that I like you...”

He continued and her eyes widened, her cheeks heating up slightly, she started at him with blank expression, her heart beating loudly too unknowingly to Lucifer but the poor man misunderstood her reaction and quickly panicked,

“to be safe out there when you do your roundly checks on the Garden of eden.”

He finishes quickly and nervously.

"Oh.."

[Y/n] said, and look down for a moment and look at him again with a forced smile.

"Of course i will, thanks for thinking about me, Luci.."

She chuckled, a fake one..

“I couldn't forget her reaction, she looked so disappointed.”

Lucifer mutters with a sad chuckle as he remembers how her face fell in slight disappointment. He didn't know why back then and it took him years to realize that she wanted him to confess.

“I am such an idiot, right?”

He says and looks at the rubber duck beside him. No response.

Even though he regrets not confessing as he planned that day, even though a part of him wished the outcome was different. He would've been happy with [y/n] but part of him is thankful he didn't, because if he did, Charlotte wouldn't be here.

Speaking of Charlotte, he is now back to worrying for her.

“I spent my time thinking about my past love when my daughter is up there talking to her!”

He exclaimed, running his fingers through his blond hair. He hopes someone is kind enough to help his daughter up there.

Unknown to him, a certain angel he was just recalling is currently talking to his daughter up in the skies and showing her around.