If only you had stayed

The Beginning

We're busy driving, my mom promised me that it would be the last time that i have to pack up and move but we both know that it will never be the last time, my mom looks back at me and looking at me with one of her judgy faces knowing that im about to cry, she takes my had and give me a soft smile but i pull my hand away as she tears start falling from my face.

This is the third time we're moving this year and it's getting really annoying, i just started making friends and enjoying it but we just had to pack up and move away again, i mean it's not even new to me anymore.

We get to the place where we moving into and I must admit it's looking alot better than i saw on the photos, it has an ocean view and its 4:54am and the sun is starting to rise its the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

I can hear my mom calling for me but instead i just put my earpords in and it the volume to the limit, i take a seat on one of the chairs and just listen to the music playing and zoning out. As i get snapped back to reality i realise the stuff is already moved into the house and i have to go find my room, as i walk into the house i walked into my mother but instead i just ignore her and walk right to my room.

As i got in my room i slam the door shut and slide down the door listening to the song "what was i made for". The song really hits hard and that's when i start sobbing my eyes out. Everything just seems to leave as soon as i come close to it, i had amazing friends and my family was right there but now, now im alone and i dont think it will be easy this time. All i ever wanted was to stay in one place where i actually fit in,

I stand up and look in one of my boxes for some pj's as the short jeans and the white croptop i have on now isn't really comfortable anymore and all i want to do is fall on my bed and sleep untill this nightmare is over

I get into pjs and put my white slippers on my feet and walk into the kitchen to get some water when i see two kittens. As i walk closer i hear my mom saying behind me that i can keep them if i can get them into the house

I walk closer to the kittens and already giving them names. They run closer to me as i walk to the door and give me the loudest and cutest meow ive ever heard. I manage to get them into the house and feed them some of my dads cats food and they seem to be enjoying it, my mom seems to love them already.

I leave them with her for now giving her a soft kiss on the cheek and grab a bottle of water on my way back to my room, as i reached my room i hear my phone already buzzing. I was really hoping it to be my friends but it was just my grandma

I fall on my bed and ignore them all and finally manage to fall asleep