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~'|Chapter 1|'~
"Heartbreak"
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~'|Warnings|'~
This chapter contains....
Boy x boy
LBGT
Bad spelling
Some bad Grammer
Small angst
Fluff
Side ships
My ships
Muichiro x Tanjiro
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~'•"Tanjiro's pov"•'~
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Muichiro! Guess what!"
"What? You finally passed a class without my help? That's hard to believe!"
"No! If anything you need my help! It's even better!"
"What? You got a confession for once? Surprised someone looked Your way and not mine this time" I rolled my eyes playfully as I watched my cocky friend prepare himself for the news. Muichiro, one of the school's more popular male students, he get's a lot of the girl's because he has a pretty face, and is pretty cute indeed. We been friends since we were kids. He might have a pretty face, but he is huge airhead, and acts like I need his help, when I didn't at all.
"Kanao accepted my confession!!"
"W-wait...what?!"
"I got my first girlfriend!"
"Quit acting like some highschool girl whose crush just noticed them..."
"You okay Muichiro? Aren't you happy? I mean you know Kanao and you are somewhat friends. Not even that! You helped her notice me and helped me get with her little by little. Not like I was scared to talk to her!" I always had a crush on this upperclassmen, Kanao, she was a kind girl who I met during a field trip as were assigned as partners. She was very shy, and I quickly wanted to become friends with her, even if it was more of an introvert and extrovert friendship..
Though I have more confidence, I was still kinda scared to pull a move on her. Being Muichiro, the cold hearted but also ladies man that he is, I wasn't sure if I should've asked for advised as he doesn't even know why girl's are attracted to him in the first place. But he always did push me to ask her out or to do something friends normally wouldn't do.
"Huh? Oh yeah...I suppose I am..never mind that. When the hell did this happen?? I didn't even know she had an interest in you..."
"Oh um..during lunch actually! That's why I left early? I thought I told you I was gonna confess my feelings to her??"
"Oh well I...I guess I didn't hear..."
"That's okay! I didn't really expect you too as much, considering you like to blast out music in your headphones. But hey that's alright! Speaking of which, Kanao and I are gonna walk home together, I know you and I usually walk home together for years and I understand if-"
"It's fine...go ahead, it's completely understandable!"
"You sure? Kanao is even fine as she completely understands as well, I just don't want you to feel replaced and-"
"I said it's fine! Don't worry about me!" He smiled, though his scent was a little different than usual, it wasn't happy at all, even if he smiled. I wanted to ask, but I know he is only gonna keep lying and lying, maybe he is upset at the idea, but wants what is best for me in a way? Maybe if Kanao and him talk and I still make time for him still, he won't have to feel this way!"
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As the months flew by, Kanao and I already been together for half a year, she and I were very happy together. Everything felt right, I felt like I found the one for me, and I hoped she felt the exact same I do. Though I thought she might be more comfortable, if still feels like she is unable to tell me what was exactly wrong with her, like as if she is hiding something but didn't want to hurt my feelings, I wanted to know, I wanted to know badly but at the same time, I want her to her time. I never wanted to rush her, I wanted her to feel super comfortable with me, to make sure she isn't afraid to ask for help from me or anyone.
She has her own small trauma when she was very young, and it took her a very long time to even be comfortable in her household. She is extremely shy, and though I thought she overcame it when she was around me, she apparently didn't, because when we dated, she still seemed afraid. Though I tried to talk to her, she said she wanted to say something when she was ready. But I was grateful that she told me that there was atleast something wrong with her..and she is hiding something....
However...one day...
"Hey Kanao, you seem nervous...is everything alright..?"
"No! It's fine I-"
"Don't ever feel like you aren't able to ask or say something, after all you are at my presence and household. You are free to speak your mind okay? I'll understand, I promise.
Suddenly, she clenched onto her shorts as tears began to roll down her face, "K-Kanao?! What's wrong are you okay! I'm sorry if I added you upset or nervous even more than you already ate! I just wanted to make sure you weren't -" she cried even harder as she clenched even harder to her stomach. I freaked out and grabbed onto her and comforted her as she cried onto my shoulder, "T-tanjiro! I-I...I don't -! I don't deserve someone like you!! I-I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!"
"Kanao...What are you talking about? What's wrong? Is everything okay?!"
"T-tanjiro I.... I'm.... Tanjiro...I want...I want..to...I can't-! Tanjiro I wanna breakup!"
"I-... what....?? W-why....?"
"I....I know I haven't been the best...and I don't deserve someone who gives me so much affection and love....when I can't even love myself...but even so....I still wanna fall in love with you...cause I know you care for me so much....I was so scared to tell you because I didn't want to hurt! I wanna be the one who makes you happy and comfortable like you want to do with me! But....I can't....I can't even....I feel like I was so close when we were friend's! But when you told me you loved me! I felt like...I had to! And I thought I loved you but Tanjiro....I can't feel anything towards you....! I want to I swear...but I-"
"So...saying I love you..only put pressure??"
"Well...just a little...though it feels really nice to be loved by someone like you...it just...I never felt my heart flutter...It feels like whenever I come close to meaning it...it feels like I fall out of love...with you...I love how happy and caring you are...you have a pure soul...and I'm scared that I'll crush it with my actions and meaningless words...."
"Kanao...my whole goal was to make you comfortable..I..I completely understand if you....if you want to breakup because you don't feel the same way... it's completely understandable... I'm glad you told me..."
"Y-your not made...but why? You have me so much...and I didn't feel anything! I lied to you saying I love you! I- I don't.... deserve your understanding... I'm... I'm such a-"
"Kanao....you been through so much...I didn't mean to put that pressure on you. Sure, I still love you even now, but I'll find a way...I hope to stay friend's...?"
"Yeah....I love that..."
However what I didn't know...there was a whole other meaning behind her words and yet she was also afraid on telling me....
I wanted to know what that was.... sensing her movement..the way she talks...the way she explains herself..as if she apologies like she cheated on me even if she didn't... connecting everything...
She fell out of love for me...not even love at the beginning it was clear from what she said it, she was telling the truth...
But,
There was something else...I didn't want to bring it up because I'm scared it would take things worse but knowing so and keeping it in hurted...
She fell in love with someone else....on accident...she didn't even mean to... didn't want to admit it...but she did...
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