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"Yoongi I am leaving to the university. Make sure they agree to all the conditions or else I'll simply step away". I spoke looking at him seriously. "Yeah... they agreed and I am telling you this for the 13th time". I huffed nodding as I get my bike and drive away. Ain't no way I am going to use a bus. The university was quite far so it took fucking forty five minutes to reach there. I park the bike and walk straight to the administration block to show up to the principal. They were kind with their introductions and I was glad they let me have my way as in wearing a mask and not giving the complete profile. I strolled away entering into the sophomore year block. The junior year didn't have a class today so I was gonna have three class continuously. One for the sophomore and the next for the third year and then followed by senior year students. I entered the class and all the students stood. I shortly introduced myself and since I am just a guest lecturer I don't need to know the names of all the students.  The job had me quite wrapped up and busy for the rest of the day. It was normal for a guest lecturer to appear with a mask but it wasn't the excuse for students to request me to show my face. At the end of the day I felt tired with all the lectures. I made my way back to the parking and drove away silently without having to create any drama shit in the university. 

I picked Seon Wu up and he was really happy since I came by myself. He whined for an ice cream which I finally got after nagging at him. "Noona.." He called me and there was something unusual in his voice and eyes. "What happened baby bear?" I asked slowly bending to his level. "I miss Kookie". His eyes saddened and my breath hitched while I held back my tears.  "Why all of a sudden Seon Wu ah?" I asked him softly cupping his cheeks in my hands. "I don't know noona... but I really miss him a lot" He hugged and sobbed in my embrace. "Shh.. baby don't cry hmm..?" I spoke controlling my tears in my throat. "N-no I w-want to meet him" He demanded as he continued sobbing. I closed my eyes tightly and spoke. "We can't baby.. not right now but I promise we'll meet him soon" He cried in my arms holding me tightly. "Please noona... " He asked and I sighed. "Let's go home". I gently placed him on the bike in front of me and drove home. The cold breeze moved his hair away and dried his remaining tears as he stayed silent. I was feeling pathetic. I can't even face him like this. The whole ride was silent and I was right he dozed off leaning back on my body holding my jacket firmly. 

Carrying him on my back while entering the apartment I was welcomed by Yoongi fast asleep on the couch snuggling himself. I chuckled as I laid Seon Wu in his room and woke Yoongi up. "Yah! Go to your room and sleep". He lazily walked to his room with his eyes still closed. I sighed as soon as I heard the thud sound of the door and another thud sound indicating that he fell on the bed without thinking twice. Well his loss. I stared into space planning on how to fulfill the promise I made to Seon Wu. I even told Yoongi that I was gonna reveal and the fact that lately my emotions are all over the place is making me talk shit is just pissing me off. I massaged my temples in frustration. I looked at the files on the TV stand. My eyes darkened looking at them. It's not too fast so why don't I move my chess pieces since he decided to make dumb moves I smirked as I thought of a crazy plan. I heard a notification sound and saw Yoongi's Phone on the table. I took it into my hands gently and opened it . It was a notification from the university. I opened it and regretted it right after. It said that there's a conference tomorrow and I had to be there so they could introduce me to the trustees. I hate this kind of shit. Though it's only until the conference I still can't bear being the spotlight for some trustees for a minute. I ruffled my hair and groaned out in frustration. 

TIMESKIP 

It was evening and I was preparing dinner currently waiting for the chicken to boil. "Noona.. what's special?" Seon Wu skipped into the kitchen cutely. "Chicken Fried rice". I replied as his eyes lit up. "Wow... that's my favourite noona". I chuckled at him as I cupped his cheeks and squished them. "So..?" I looked at him with a confused gaze. "When are we going to meet Kookie?" My breath hitched and I stiffened on my spot and coughed. Yoongi came into the kitchen clearing his throat. "Hey there lil guy.." He eyed at me to continue my cooking while he took Seon Wu away from the kitchen. I was surprised hearing him mention the name twice today. The fact that we are back here is making him miss him more. I held back the tears that threatened to fall as I concentrated on the dinner remembering all the old days. The days that were meant to bring a beautiful smile were dangerously threatening my tears to fall. I wanted to shout and let out. I want to give up and show up at his doorstep and hug him cry out everything but this was the choice I made and I have to deal with it. There's no turning back after coming this far. All the effort won't matter and the distance and the hard work would mean nothing and seem foolish if I step way now. I have to stand and fight. I have to figure the shit out of this really soon. 

YOONGI POV 

I was glad that I was able to divert the topic and keep the dinner a bit normaller. Seon Wu went back into his room while Yn and I were sitting on the couch staring deeply at nothing. "You have to take things fast... maybe two steps at a time instead of one, maybe cut some slack out of the chances we can see". I suggested as she just hummed looking distant. "Don't go hard on yourself yn. It's not your fault". I rubbed her back gently making her look at me. "I can't help it Yoongi. I am miserable and my emotions are all over the place. I should make the move and I am waiting for the right moment". She spoke firm and serious but there was sadness behind all that. "You can't sit and wait for the opportunity Yn... just turn the situation that tables would turn and the opportunity knocks at the door". I spoke reciprocating with the same firm tone. "There's a conference tomorrow at the university... so you need to reschedule the target that was set at that time". She spoke swiftly changing the topic while I sighed and replied, "Okay. There's still two more targets tomorrow". She smirked as she looked at me and spoke, "hm... interesting".