Like A Boss (A JackSepticEye FanFic)

Chapter One

"Top of the morning to ya laddies! My name is JackSepticEye and welcome back to..." he begins his video like he usually does, a gigantic smile on his face. I stare dreamily at him as he talks about random things, cussing whenever something happens in the game he's playing. I've always wondered what it would be like to be on the other side of the camera, talking and laughing while millions of people watch you. But, I'm too shy to do something like that. I can't even get up in front of my class with shaking to death and having my words come out in squeaks.

I sigh as I sign off of YouTube, deciding it would be better not to dream about things that would never come true. Instead, I pick up my violin and begin to play. Music flows around me like leaves falling to the ground in Autumn. I smile as a play each note, feeling as if I'm on stage performing for thousands, my stage fright no longer existing. I finish the piece with a sigh as I set down the violin. None of my dreams will ever come true because of my fears.

I'll never travel around the world because of my fear of airplanes and heights. I'll never go on a cruise because of my fear of the ocean and boats. I'll never become a famous violinist because of my stage fright. I'll never become a famous YouTuber because of my fear of stage fright. I'll never do anything I want because of my fears.

I shake my head in attempt to rid of my thoughts. One day, I will make one of my dreams come true. Until then, I'll hide in my apartment, only leaving when I have to buy groceries. Sitting at my computer, I send an email to JackSepticEye, who's real name is Sean. I don't know why, but I just feel as if I need to tell him everything. I begin the email;

Dear Sean, A.K.A JackSepticEye,

Hi, my name is Dixie, and I live in Ohio. I have no idea why I'm emailing you this but, I guess I just feel like letting these feelings out and I know you'll never read this email in the first place. I just wish I could be more like you; outgoing, funny, smart, talented, and so much more. The thing is, I'm afraid of a lot of things. I have stage fright, which means I can't become a YouTuber like you, even though I would love to know what it feels like to be on the other side of the screen, making the videos instead of watching them.

All my life I've gone through everyday the same way. I wake up, either stay at home or go grocery shopping, then hide away until the next day. I live in fear of being judged. It's hard for me to leave my apartment to go anywhere. You, on the other hand, travel all over the place. I just wish I knew what it's like to be liked by millions, without the fear of judgment.

XOXO, Dixie.

I turn off my computer before setting it aside and laying in bed. I sigh as I stare up at the ceiling, almost regretting sending the email yet at the same time not. I drift off to sleep as I think about being someone else.