If you're a sensitive person to these topics, I don't suggest reading, but if you like suffering while reading angst, then this is the perfect chapter for you (•▽<)~☆
Both Ike and Mysta were now young adults, ready to buy a small apartment for them and move there. They were carrying a few boxes: some of them were light and others heavy. Mysta was now carrying a heavy one and he was right in front of the open door when he accidentally tripped and fell. All the things that were on the box were on the ground, but a particular notebook caught Ike's attention when he saw his boyfriend falling down on the floor. His eyes widened and he immediately grabbed it so that Mysta couldn't reach it because it also got his attention.
Mysta: What's that?
He asked after he got up and approached Ike, curious of why his boyfriend was keeping a notebook far from him
Ike: Nothing, you don't wanna see what's in there...
He replied, looking at the box on the floor. There was something written on it: "Ike's old stuff"
Mysta: Aw come on, we live together, and were even planning to marry so why are you hiding that notebook from me? There's no reason to, am I right?
Ike realized that Mysta was actually right: there was no reason to hide his old notebook from him but still he didn't want him to look inside it
Ike: I...
He was thinking of an excuse, but before he could even think about which excuse he could use, his boyfriend grabbed the notebook from his hands
Ike:Mysta no!-
Ike slightky shouted, but it was too late because Mysta already opened the notebook and saw the horror in it: messy scribbles, half ripped pages, tear drops but the worst of all is that there were even blood drops on the pages. Ike gulped as he saw his future husband look at those pages with terror on his face. The fox boy then raised his head, looking at his boyfriend with tears in his eyes
Mysta: Ike, why did you never tell me about this?...
He asked, his voice and expression describing concern and worry for his loved one.
Ike: Mysta, I...
Ike was trying to make out a word to try to calm the other one down, but it was useless to
Mysta: When and why?
He asked with a strict and shaky tone of voice, wanting a response
Ike froze at the hearing of Mysta's strict voice. He has never heard him be so strict about wanting a response, but he had the right to: Ike was hiding something pretty big from Mysta (not his dick tho)
Mysta still had tears in his eyes, but his stare was sharp, looking straight at Ike
Ike: I think it's time I tell you something...
He replied, gently grabbing the notebook from his loved one's hands and putting it inside the box again. At those words, Mysta's expression softened, realizing that it probably was worse than he thought
Ike grabbed his boyfriend's hands and held them gently before taking a deep breath and spill everything out
Ike: You know when we were in high school, right? When you fell in love with Samantha? I was struggling: I was already in love with you, but you we're always talking about her, which made me jealous, but also think that you we're going to belong to her and that you would have never loved me. I was already affected by this, but another problem that was even worse was that my step-mom married a man and he became my step-father, but he turned out to be abusive. My step-mom and him would argue often, which didn't help. I ended up falling into a spiral of depression and the only way I could let my feelings out was writing them so one day I bought that notebook and started to write my feelings down. It was getting really bad at the time, so bad that I started to... to...
Ike's voice turned shaky as tears formed in his eyes. He tried his best to keep them in, not making himself be seen as a weak person to Mysta.
Mysta: to?...
Mysta asked, hesitating a bit while his hands started to caress his loved one's in an attempt to comfort him.
Ike: ...harm myself... to punish myself and I would let the drops of blood fall onto the pages. It was too much for me at the time...
Ike then gave up and started sobbing quitely, letting some tears fall from his cheek.
Mysta was left completely speechless. It was actually worse than he thought. More tears formed in the fox's eyes before he hugged his dear novelist.
Mysta: Why didn't you ever tell me?
Mista asked, his voice also became shaky.
Ike: I was afraid... Afraid of being misunderstood and that you would have left me...
Mysta: You know that I would have never... I would have never left you in such a moment of weakness, honey
Mysta then pulled away from Ike, both with tears in their eyes. The orange boy looked at his blue boy before he leaned forward to kiss him. Ike was slightly surprised, but then he kissed his dear lover back and wrapping his arms around his boyfriend's waist. After a few seconds, they pulled away, and now, they were slightly smiling, forgetting all of the pain and cries that they had a few seconds ago. Mysta then started to give his boyfriend some pecks on the lips, not letting the other breath for a small moment.
Ike: Hm- myst- stop!-
Ike mumbled between the small pecks his love would give him before chuckling and pulling away
Ike: Don't shower me with such love before I might do it to you instead
Mysta smiled a bit wider as he noticed the smile on his loved one's face. Just a few seconds ago, he was crying and now he was happy again. Such a great feeling on the chest
Mysta: There you go, now you're all happy and smiling
Ike let out a 'aww' sound and after that, his eyes looked at his lover's lips and then his eyes, before he leaned in and kissed him on the lips one last time..
Mysta: Okay, now we should finish carrying the boxes inside and putting the stuff away. You can shower me with love and kisses later
Ike: Alright darling, let's finish our work
Ike and Mysta then came back to bringing the boxes in and putting away the stuff. They later did some sweet couple love and feel asleep in each other's arms.
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HAIII FINALLY I MANAGED TO RELEASE THIS NEW CHAPTER (≡^∇^≡)
We're already near the end, this might be one of the last chapters (not because I don't want to continue this, but because it really is almost the end TvT)
THANK YOU SM FOR YOUR SUPPORT SO FAR, IT REALLY MEANS A LOT TO ME >u<
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