Weird: Nick x Reader

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by thiswasmaneskin

by thiswasmaneskin

Had to get your attention somehow and btw, This will have a slight mention of SA btw also ik this will seem weird bc im a wattpad smut writer💀

I have Phallophobia. Phallophobia is basically fear of male genitalia. OMG! The writer of this book has phallophobia?!!?? That's weird /sarc

I have this due to my ex bfs (all being cis men) and they all have done something wrong to me that involves their genitalia and it has traumatized me doing certain things without that phallophobia happening. Ik this is tmi but i can't even use my dildo due to that fear and having trigger flashbacks. I can't even masturbate anymore without thoughts of my ex bf SA'ing me

it makes me feel ashamed that i can't pleasure myself without those thoughts. i think i might have ptsd, idk bc i don't have the money to get an official diagnosis.

also i will try to release a new story by tuesday bc i have surgery on my tooth next wednesday and will be in pain🥲

also i will do a q&a for my 100k special so leave questions here