Once In a Blue Moon ||~Highschool Series #1~|| Jaszzii ||

6 Kabanata

Naglalakad na’ko papuntang Grade 10 building. Maaga ako pumasok ngayon dahil sa wala nman akong masyadong ginawa.

Dito nalang din kasi ako mag kakabisado ng tula na isinulat ko. Marami kasi akong ginagawa sa bahay at halos dinadalaw ako ng katamaran, may mga oras din kasi na nag co-cover ako ng mga kanta ng mga famous artists.

Buti nalang talaga iyon lang naging assignment namin kahapon.

Mathematics ang unang subject namin, pero ang sabi naman ay hindi raw makakapasok ang teacher namin. Kaya vacant namin ang oras niya, pwede pa akong matulog kahit kaunti.

Ako pa lang ang tao sa room. Ala-sais akong pumasok at matagal tagal pa ang first subject namin kaso wala lang din.

Itinulog ko nalang muna, power nap. Inaantok pa kasi ako. Tsaka wala naman akong makausap o maka-chismisan.

I got a message from someone, i don't really know.

Ah, si kuya Xu Rem pala hahaha

Reming Xu

Reming Xu:
你需要帮助吗？前几天我看到你很挣扎。
( Do you need help? I saw you struggling the other day.)

Lenalyn:
兄弟你怎么知道的？是的，请用数学来解释。
(How do you know, brother? Yes, please in mathematics)

Reming Xu:
好的，我正在去你房间的路上。
(Alright, i am on my way to your room now.)

I didn't know, how he knew i was already on school.

Hindi ako fluent sa Chinese, natuturuan at nasasanay lang ako dahil sakanya. Tsaka nanonood ako ng mga Chinese videos.

Yun din pala iyong reason ko kung bakit maaga ako pumasok, yung math kasi namin baka biglang pumasok agad yung teacher edi mas nakaka-gulat kung gano’n pa ang mangyayari.

May Algebra kasi, i hate that type of mathematics.

Tinuruan ako, i struggle mostly with numbers. I liked how he tried to simplify it for me just so i could understand the problems to solve it.

How i wish, every man was like him. Not just in math, but also on life.

His girlfriend would be so lucky because of him. A blessed man it was like a dream of every woman.

Nakatulog ako matapos ko masagutan ang math ko.

. In dream.

I love you to the fullest, but forgive me. My love

Minahal naman kita, but i just can't feel it. I tried mahal. Kaso iba iyong tinitibok ng puso ko, hinding hindi kita kayang mahalin tulad ng gusto mo.

Ayokong sabihin, ayaw rin naman kitang paikutin. Hindi hindi ko naman kayang gawing lokohin ka, kasi kahit papaano mahal pa naman kita eh.

Ang swerte mo sana sa'kin, at ang swerte ko sana sa'yo. Kasi ikaw yung nanjaan noong kailangan ko ng kasama, noong masakit ang loob at damdamin ko Dale.

Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit tayo humantong sa ganito, kung bakit biglang nawala ang lahat ng pag ibig na mayroon. Muka ngang hindi pa ako handa, hindi pa pala ako naka move on. Ang tanga tanga ko sa part na iyon.

Nakakainis itong sarili ko na'to, hindi ko alam bakit minahal kita kahit alam ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko pa ang nakaraan ko, na hindi ko parin nakalimutan si Elize. Hindi ko pa pala siya kayang bitawan o pakawalan sa ibang tao, simula noong bumalik siya. Bumalik lahat ng dati ko na nararamdaman.

”Sobrang tanga at ang bobo ko sa part nayon, malaman na mahal ko pa pala si Elize.” —Gio.

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Haha, tanginang panaginip yan. Pinagloloko ba nila ako.

Maniniwala ba ako, tila’y ito'y totoo. Sa lahat ng knyang sinambit at ginawa ay parang sobrang daling paniwalaan.

Alam ko na panaginip lamang ito, ngunit wala naman imposible. Maraming bagay ang pwedeng maging totoo sa isang panaginip lamang, ito'y isang uri ng ipinapadalang mensahe sa'yo. Pero, huwag naman sana itong senaryong ito, dahil mahal ko siya. Ayaw ko siyang pakawalan.

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Enlighten me, please don't let this happen in through my lifetime. God knows how much i loved this man, that i can sacrifice everything just so he wouldn't leave me. He was a treasure of mine, that i will always gate keep. I made him the man he is, God can make me a sinner but i will not let go of him. Even though it hurts me as much as everyone do, i won't let anything happen that could shred us both.

He was the spark and light of my life. He made me the woman who will never surrender how tough life is. He was there for me no matter happen, i don't want to let go of him. I just hope, he moved on, let go of the past and focus on the present. No, please God don't let him go, it is like i can't live without him. He was the definition of ethereal, a person who came from another world that you couldn't believe he was from here. He was unique, and I can't tell any mistakes from his life. He was perfect, that somehow, he was hard for me to reach.

Forbid me, for doing things that felt like a sin to you. But, never take this man away from me. As i love him as much as you all do. I would cry if he was away from me, i like him because of how he is, he doesn't need to change himself just for me. He was perfect just the way he is. I love him more than 3000.

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Tita Chi

Chi:
你几点回家？
(What time are you going home?)

:
I am pauwi napo tita.

She can understand english and filipino but it is just hard for my auntie to speak the language of it.

I was thankful for her, she raised me like her own kid. She never abandoned me. She was from China, and so am I.

I like her, she never forgets every special occasion for me, since my parents are gone. She took really good care of me since day 1.

I love tita Chi so much, she is malambing, mapagmahal and kind. She was never gifted by a child.

I felt bad for her, but maybe it wasn't her fault. It is just because maybe hindi niya kayanin.

But, she rest assured me that i am in good hands. she always cooks me my favourite food. Adobo.

I love the way she is, how sweet and caring but strict for some reason.

Maybe that's because of how she grew up, that's because she was my one and only auntie i am close with.

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