TAETZU - "The Memories Of You And Me"

Chapter 56

-TZUYU POV-

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I was a nervous wreck when Jungkook called and Taehyung answered, I didn't even confess to Taehyung what happened to Jungkook and me. I lost my memory so he will understand that if one day I admit the fact that I also had a relationship with another person when I lost my memories of me and Taehyung, he will also understand me because even if the truth is he also had a relationship with Jennie because we both lost our memories and forgot each other that's why he can understand me but I don't have the courage to admit the truth to him. Until now we still haven't talked, maybe he still doesn't trust that Jungkook is really my teammate. It's been many hours did it take for that situation to happen, in fact neither one of us had intention to speak even a single word. He was just staring at the window while observing the scenery outside and here I was staring at him and wondering how I could win his trust, our trust in each other. I was fixing the things when I heard a groan from him and I turned to see him standing, it was difficult for him to stand because of the bruises on his body. I immediately went to his side and supported him, he just looked at me for a long time and slowly removed my hand from his arms.

Taehyung took his patient's saline equipment to support him, my heart sank in sadness when I saw him caressing me and how he slowly removed my hand from his arms. His mind is hard to read and understand but I only realize one thing that I know he still doesn't trust what I said about who called my phone. Even before he could leave, I immediately asked, I was worried and afraid that something might happen to him if I let him go alone to wherever he was going.

"W-where are you going on a night like this?" I asked calmly while my voice stuttered because maybe his actions would make me cry.

"Don't worry, it's just on the rooftop of the hospital" he said while not looking at me, the pain of feeling that if we were fine, it would surely be broken right away.

"You haven't recovered and you can't walk yet, I'll go with you" I said, it's already night so I'm just afraid that something bad might happen that I don't know about, it's better for me to accompany him than to worry about not seeing him anywhere. I just heard his heavy breathing, I was sure that he was getting bored of me.

"I can do it Tzuyu, I brought our breakfast while you were sleeping this morning. Just let me go, I'll get some air and think about things, I'll be back in a little while"

his voice is scary, it's like you're in water and it's so deep that you can't breathe. He speaks differently to me now, his soft tone is no longer when he talks to me. Now it's like a blade so deep as the darkness eats you that you almost cry in fear. I just hummed quietly, I didn't want to argue because the trouble would only get worse.

I kept quiet as I watched him slowly open the door, I didn't want to cry, not now that he was here. I was thinking that maybe that wasn't the only thing Jungkook said on the phone to make Taehyung angry like this, maybe he said something else that Taehyung didn't mention so that I would know who called. It's like the darkness ate Taehyung right now because he remained silent for a few hours before and ignored me, no matter what I did, even a look or a hum softly, I didn't receive anything from him and I know that the guilt is too deep and there is no trust he's with me even now.

I just looked at the floor and not at Taehyung, because he slowly opened the door and for sure he was going to leave the room and leave me alone. I kept quiet and didn't intend to speak, I didn't want to try any more and he would just push me away no matter what I did. As i kept thinking my thoughts silently, a hand extended as it brushed against mine and slowly pulling me close to him, my breathe caught as he expertly took my hand without my cautions. He straighten and there was that glint again in his eyes as our gazes met, i look at him as he gave me a little smile. I was amusing and fluttered to him, that was all, it had been silly to think for even a moment that perhaps he could truly appreciate my presence. I could feel my belly tightened and my cheeks burning hot, his warmth hand touching against mine is making me feel better. That eyes were empty and dull earlier are now exchange into bright and dreamy.

My thoughts were really strange. Anyhow, these aimless thoughts i have don't do me much good. The unpleasant warmth as i still felt my body was unbearable because of this sudden moment but could also make me pleasant somehow. I will be transported to this moment at my hand turned into a stare and i could almost feel that I'd become transparent all the way through as a sense of my own existence floated down and settled over me and silently, without making a sound. I still didn't gave a word as i was watching him holding the patient's saline equipment and holding my hand at the same time, i thought he would like to go alone and why he's bringing me now.

He closed the door shut as we continue to walk away the room, headed to the rooftop. I immediately stop my deep thoughts by how fascinated i am right now because i heard a small groan coming from him. I approximately let go my hand into his as i took a wheelchair for him to seat on, he look at me for a moment with a curiosity on his face as i chuckled softly and pointed the wheelchair.

"Sit on it" i said quietly as he took a small grinned and finally sat on the wheelchair as i hurriedly pushing it slowly and proceed at the rooftop.

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We were amazed by how so mesmerizing the view was at night and the smell of breeze felt of relieve. I still dont know why he changed his mind taking me with him, holding me and pulling me close like nothing argument happened earlier. We still haven't spoke as we both fascinating by the view in front of us, the city of light and how small the car look downside and the bright big moon pointed on us with a stars beside it. I look at him unnoticeable, watching him getting mesmerized by the view and suddenly his gaze started to drop into mine as i froze on my spot and couldn't look away. His gaze made me stay in a minute, gazing deeply into each other and eventually I started to look away.

"May I?"

I look at him once again as he suddenly spoke, what does he mean by that word. Is he going to kiss me again and now asking for my permission? I made a questioning look as he giggle, this man making me overthink...

"May I hold your hand, once again?" he hurriedly volunteered his hand and still waiting for me to put it on the top of him, my heart started to race and my cheeks getting red.

I slowly put my hand towards him and he immediately hold it and tightened the grip. He look at the view again while i was looking at him, his my view, a beautiful one.

"Im sorry for my actions earlier, i noticed before i left that i could took a small glance at you and i saw you looking so upset. It broke my heart seeing you like that, forgive me..." his words are soft rough as his deep voice are getting through.

"It's fine" i only said, i couldn't speak properly since im still craving for this moments again and i ruined the opportunity last night, what a terrible decision.

"Thank you, i saw you putting a blanket on me when im really freezing to death" i said as i watch him smile.

"Your awake?" he asked and i nodded.

"Taehyung----lets forget about Jungkook anyway, he's a traitor and never deserve an apology. Let's focus on us once more, i swear his just only a teammate." I finally said, i still had no guts to tell him about my past relationship about him, not now.

"yeah--"

"Let's take a selfie, can we?" I excitedly said and he look at me with teasing face as i pouted and begging him.

"Why so sudden? almost gave me a heart attack when you said that" he jokily said and i pound him gently and we laughed.

"I didn't said no. Hurry! then let's head back." he said and i jump excitedly and took out my phone, we enjoyed this night with full of happiness.
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