You kept looking at me. You told me I should stop waiting for something that isn't gonna happen. All those promises you made meant nothing bc in the end your just like the rest of them.
You didn't even try to be a decent human being.. Dragged my name through the dirt after we ended but I kept defending yours. You don't have to be the bad guy.
I never wanna see you again yet I look for you every day. I go on walk to keep me sane but I always end up thinking about you while ur probably busy telling her how much you love her.
It hurts me so much how you could move on so easily after we planned our whole future together. I had to replant my future without you in it, you really had me fulled
I thought I saw something in you but that was just the mask you put up. Some people say keep going back untill you hate them. I could never hate someone I loved so much.
How could u stand there and smile at me with the thing you tell everyone. The things I told you bc I trusted you.
I still keep the secrets you told me bc I swore to you it stays between us and I will forever keep my word. I look for you in everyone I meet.. But deep down I know, no one is you.
I wanna break your heart like you broke mine but I'm not built to be bad to u..
You will always be my safe place.. I just can't visit it anymore. Hold it.. I can't kiss you anymore, tell you how much I love you without you staring blankley into my teary eyes..
I stopped trying to get us back I tried moving on my I'm not interested in anyone, I hate physical touch now.. I don't look into people's eyes anymore bc if I do all I see is ur eyes. Your cold brown eyes..
Yet no revenge because you are the boy with my heart but no longer wants me. I should move one like we never met.. Why is it so hard.. I thought when u left you'd leave my mind but I was wrong.
I wish you nothing but the best.. Even if it means being with someone who isn't me.
I love you...
