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Oneshot- Gyuvin

Second choice- Kim Gyuvin

Genre: Angst, fluff.

Warnings: petnames, hate comments, die jokes.

Pairing: Fem!reader x Kim Gyuvin.

About: Gyuvin Isn't your second best. 

The first thing you didn't expect to see was Gyuvin slumped over against the bed's headboard with his phone in his hand with a lost look on his face when you had gotten out of the bathroom. You sat down next to him causing him to jump at your presence. He turned off his phone and set it down as he wrapped his arms around your waist and nuzzled his face into your neck. "I missed you" he mumbled, you gently caressed the back of his neck making him relax a bit "I missed you too Gyu, but are you okay?" you asked looking down at him

He looked up at you and furrowed his eyebrows together "yeah, why wouldn't I be" he grinned, you could see right through him. You could tell he was faking, but you didn't want to push him, "nothing, just wanted to ask" he let out a small "okay" before opening his arms for you, smiling at his invite you place yourself in his arms as you both lie down. Gyuvin grabs his phone and opens it forgetting that the last thing he had closed it on was the video where the hate comments directed towards him lay. You, of course, noticed as you were looking at his phone, but deep down Gyuvin had hoped that you didn't. He looked down at you peacefully laying on his chest to see if you saw. You looked up at him debating on bringing it up to him or not, he had exited the page too fast for you to see anything but one to two hate comments. You knew being an idol came with prices and that this was no exception despite how much it sucked.

On the other hand, Gyuvin thought he was in the clear, his mind was racing full of thoughts but the only thing he had hoped for was for you to not have to worry about what he's going through. He doesn't want you to suffer with him, or watch him suffer. Gyuvin believed that you were too perfect to see any side of him but the best, even the side of him that wished to be held and comforted by you was kept away.

You two laughed as you scrolled through a few videos on his feed before you both decided it was time to sleep. He had charged in his phone and laid there, holding you, staring at the ceiling, safe. So why did he have this constant weight on his shoulders? Why was he so worried? He had everything that he wanted, so why couldn't he sleep? There was a lingering thought in his brain floating around that he couldn't seem to get rid of no matter how much he tried.

He didn't want to face it.

He didn't want to think that he wouldn't be your first choice.

Let alone not be a choice to you at all.

He didn't want to think that he was any less to you than an option to keep around.

You then knock him out of his daze.

"Gyuvin!"

"Huh?" he blinked seeing you sitting up right next to him as you rested your hand on his chest. "Gyuvin talk to me" you said, he gulped a bit before smiling "my love, I'm fine, really."

"Gyuvin please" you pleaded, your voice laced with desperation. He couldn't take it anymore.

If keeping it in hurt you, he didn't want to keep it in. He sat himself up and paused for a second.

"Am I your first choice?" he asked, his voice slightly breaking.

"Huh?"

"I'm scared y/n.

I'm scared you'll wake up one day and choose someone else, take a look around you. There are so many idols that are better, stronger, more attractive than me and you're telling me it's me you choose? Out of everyone? You don't wake up every day thinking of the different people you could be dating besides me?"

You see his eyes tear up and his mouth starts to frown, grabbing his hand and you speak up.

"Gyuvin-"

He had cut you off and continued

"I don't get why you chose me out of everyone, I'm not that special y/n. take a look at Ricky or Jiwoong...they're just...

Better than me." he sighed letting his tears fall on his face.

Squeezing his hand you started wiping his tears.

"I don't know where you got the idea that I'll choose anyone but you in this, let alone any lifetime. Every day I wake up imagining my future with you, there's no need to think of anyone else when I have you Gyuvin. I don't need anyone else as long as I have you, I don't need an idol who's anyone but you. all I want is you and only you.

You'll always be my first choice-

No, you'll be my only choice

In this and every lifetime."

He continued to cry as you wiped his face holding him.

"Gosh I, I don't want you to see me like this" he mumbled as he tried to collect himself, but you held him too tightly for him to escape.

"Let me hold you for a second"

He didn't need or want to protest, he just laid there in your arms as the words constantly replayed in his head.

'No, you'll be my only choice in this and every lifetime.'

"Baby?"

"Yeah Gyu?"

"What if I'm not an option in other lifetimes?"

"Then...I'll have to die"

You both laughed and rested in each other's comfort knowing that

Gyuvin was your only choice and you sure were his.

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