MAXLEY-idk what to title this :>

chapter 9 (bradleys pov)

Although I've had a lot of fun, the past 3 days have been so stressful. It feels nice to let loose in the moment. But as soon as I get back home, poof. I start stressing over my little mistakes and what I should or shouldn't have said. Usually, I don't have to care about saying something snarky to people. But for some reason, I do with max. He isn't like anyone else.

Tank has been a great help with talking about the topic. I still think it's bizarre that I never realized he was.. gay. Not like I think it's bad or anything, it just I can't be... That... What would my father think of me?

I was already ready to go meet up with max. I thought about putting on a more presentable outfit, but I decided my sweater and cacky-pants would do.

Idk why I'm even doing this but... I guess I'll go... No harm in that.. I thought to myself. I was holding the note from earlier to remember what time to be there.

The whole walk there, I was contemplating if I should still go or not. He might think I'm a little desperate for agreeing to see him 3 days in a row. But then again, why was he inviting me ho hang out 3 days in a row? Ugh.. Max is so confusing.

By the time I got to the park, I saw him sitting on a bench waiting for me. He looked so... Happy. Not many people were around, since it was the middle of the day.  He had spotted me and his face immediately lit up. Why was he so happy to see me?

"You actually came! Come sit down! " he  said while patting the spot next to him. I sat next to him as he smiled. It was quiet for a couple of minutes as we just sat there. God Bradley! Just say something already.

As I was trained deep in my thoughts, I noticed him looking at me. I at first thought it was a stare of confusion, embarrassment, or maybe even hatred. But as I looked over, I realized it was admiration. He was... Admiring me? Why? To break the awkward tension, I finally said something.

"What.. " I paused for a moment, gathering my confidence. " what did you want to give me? " he just sat there for a second and started giggling. Of course. He was probably just making fun of me. I looked down for a moment at my lap. Why did I even come in the first place? Shouldn't I be sitting on my high throne of popularity at the gamma house?

Just then, I felt a hand reach across and grab my shoulder. I turned and looked at him. He got a bit closer and leaned a bit on my chest. Shit! Bradley! Ask him what he is doing! Say something, at least! I wanted to get up and go home, but at the same time, I wanted to get closer to him too. I think about this idiot all the time. Shit, even when he first arrived. I was stupid enough to follow him and beg him to join the gammas!