𝐘𝐎𝐔 {𝐘𝛐𝐮'𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝛐𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝛐 𝐦𝐞}

Back to New York

A new start? something i lie to my self about almost everyday yet here I'm. no, life was never really easy for me specially after all the shit I've had to do for love, people who never loved me back but even if they did it never really felt satisfying. i want a love that I can control. passionate, hot, romantic, sweet yet spicy. a love that can make you feel like you're on cloud 9.

that's when i decided no more love, no more you, no more new. from now on only work in my old book store, perfect, peace and yea. money   

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   Here i was using my phone  being extremely bored. it was raining outside so no costumers just soft music playing in the background, there are few staff working under me since after coming back to New York i got Mooney's bookstore repaired and extended a bit to have more space. there's like 3 or 4 new staff 2 girls and two boys. but today the store is pretty empty because i told staff to take a day off because of rain, i used to take care of shop when i was here few years ago so now its not a big deal.   

as i was humming suddenly the store door opened the door more like slammed it open which i bet is an accident. now my thoughts are 'who are y- like a normal question who did just open the door?' i tilted my head to side from behind the self as i saw a women with long dark hair closing a soft yellow umbrella . 

"ugh, my dress..." she murmured while dusting her wet dress, as i watched you. you seemed kind of annoyed, by weather, by people or maybe by someone.... who? i don't care. i don't wanna know who you are or where you from definitely not American or from New York, even the style of yours is really different maybe you're fro- ok joe STOP stop thinking  about who, when or where.   

your face....i wanna just see how you look nothing to stress about. i mean I'm a changed man still....because you're my costumer in shop I'm curious. 

i took a deep breath, standing up from my seat and fixing my shirt. i do look ok right?... i- ok why do i care about my appearance right now? ugh... probably because I'm hot? and i do....not care about what you think of me or whatever...   

i bit my lip and put on a bright smile about to go greet you but before i could i heard footsteps and anklets dangling making faint sound which was pleasant to hear. i looked up as my eyes widened. soft smile on plump red glossy lips, dark brown sharp eyes twinkling, soft curls with two side locks Curvey, pretty body, cute pointed button nose, soft looking cheeks. i was dazed how can one look so fucking pretty. not trying to sound like a creep but i can imagine how your smooth looking skin, oh! how i can imagine your skin would feel against mine.  I'm losing my mind again joe remember  do not let your old habits wake. "so, miss. is there anything i can help you with?" i asked with a gentle smile. 

you smiled softly....you just smiled at me with that sweet face. this feels like a dream. "yea, actually I'm here for job" you spoke beamingly as i tilted my head confused, job? but staff is full than what is this girl talking about and wait...shell work HERE???? ok ok joe stop being excited. stop being so delusional be smart and cool don't let another one enter your life. 

"i would like to apolo-"before i could complete you took out your phone showing me the insta post i posted few weeks ago but those opportunities are gone. if i tell you than youll be upset.  

"i see well....miss the post was about staff but i already Heird 4 people" yep, there i said it. i don't care about others anym-

or maybe i do, i watched your smile drop as for those sparkling eyes are back to numb...u smiled awkwardly "oh...I'm sorry i wasn't aware. its just i have financial issues so i would have appreciate a job but n-"you were saying until....  joe just shut up but here i was couldn't see your smile drop so i immediately interrupted your words saying...   

"but i think one extra staff position is open. if you want i can hire y- i mean try to hire you...try to.." i said while trying to not be nervous near you. also it was a lie...fuck

"really??!" you beamed as my heart started beating fast. i chuckled "yes. just give me your number and name plus other needed information" i said while smiling softly. you smiled looking so innocent.

you took out a ressume from bag and extended towards me. i smiled taking it from you flipping over the pages as if i'm interested in these papers. but the truth was...i wanna know YOU

i told myself previously that from the moment i killed love there wont ever be a new you but yet you decided to enter in my fucked up life with a new twist....  will i evver be able to esape who i am or shall i say who i was....i dont know but what i know right now is

i want to know YOU.

~End of the chapter~