Muñequita

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 ɴᴀᴛᴀʟɪᴇ 3/17/22

Dear diary,

It has been a year since my papa die. I still have the muñequita he gave me when I was five, I still miss him of course, he just made eveything better. you know? I could be sad and crying but then in two minutes I'd be crying from laughter because of him.(Trust me he's actually done it before, and many times SUCCESSFULLY! He was the sunshine of our family, making everyone happy. 

I also really like this one boy in school he's really sweet and funny. But the problem is one of my friends like him so.. can't break girl code. My papa always told me to follow my heart but if I keep following my heart I'll just end up alone like always. Anyways I have to go diary I'll write another entry tomorrow or maybe later my moms out working her night shift at the diner and I need to put Mariella to sleep.

I close my diary and sigh, I hide it under my bed and walk out of my room.

Mariella! Time for bed! 

I yell looking for her, I soon spot her watching the tv happily with her my little pony figures. A warm feeling shot through me as I smiled. She looked so.. calm, she was caught in her own world watching Dora. As much as I hated to ruin this moment I had to or else mom would be mad at me if I didn't.

Mariella? 

I speak in a softer tone, she turned to look at me and her expression changed from happy and calm to upset and irritation.

Noooo I don't wanna go to bed! 

She protested crossing her arms and pouting like the child she is, I sighed.

Please Mari? Mami isn't going to be happy if I don't put you to bed.

 I say hoping to calm her down and atleast go into her room. But she is stubborn, so you can just get her to do something. I look at a photo of my dad that stand in the coffe table.

Please? Papa wouldn't be happy, he would want his princesa to get her good nights rest. 

I frowned slightly, her pout lessens and she looks sad.

Can I sleep with my little pony figures?

I smiled a tiny bit and nodded.

Yea just make sure it doesn't poke your eye.

She looks a little more happy and she slowly stood up. She picked up papas picture and gave it a kiss.

Only for papa though. She said, and set down the photo carefully.

Now let's go come on. I grab her hand and we walk togheter to her room and she gets settled in her bed I tuck her in and hand her, her my little pony figure.

Comfy? I ask making sure she'll actually stay in bed.

Yeah really, can you read me a story please please please? With a cherry on top?. I can't say no to her, especially when she gives me puppy eyes.

Yes I'll read you a nighttime story, which one? I point to her bookshelf. She pauses and thinks.

Ahmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. That one.She point at "if you give a mouse a cookie" one.

English or Spanish? "Baby you got sm in your nose-" I'm joking. Sorry anyways.

I want Spanish! I smile and walk over to her bookshelf searching for it, running my pointer finger through the different types of books she had. My finger paused at "si le das una galletita a un raton" I pick the book up and study it.

What's taking you so long oldie? I pause at the nickname.

Don't call your elders that it's disrespectful. 

I hate to be that when someone says something funny but then I turn into a life lesson person. But I am that person anyways so my friends have to deal with it.

I sit on the edge of my sisters bed.

Ready? I ask making sure.

Yea! She exclaimed excited.

Si le das una galletita a un raton.. I started.

Time skip 10 minutes.

I close the book quietly, Mari is knocked out already sleeping peacefully. I move a strand of hair away from her face. I quietly place the book back in the book shelf. And Tip toe towards her door, before I leave I hit the light switch and close the door. My mom still hasn't arrived from her night shift. I shrug it off and turn off the living room lights as well as the tv we left playing, the kitchen lights and the hallways lights. When I get to my room I close the door too and get into bed.

I stare out my window up to the sky, the stars all scattered around. Blending into the blissful navy dark blue sky, I watch as the tress move a bit. I can basically feel the breeze and I shiver slightly covering myself more with blankets. I turn to my side and turn off the lamp.

What a day..

I woke up to knocking at my door, maybe it was my mom?

Come in... I say in a slightly groggy voice.

My little sister walks in crying.

Mari? W-what happened was it mami or what? I jump out of my bed worried.

She opens her mouth but closes it she shook her head, she sobbed and sobbed and hiccuped.

Mari come here..I open my arms to give her a hug and she lunges towards me hugging me. She cried and cried in my shoulder. 

Mari please.. talk to me what happened? She gasped and sobbed quietly. I can feel her heartbeat fast and the way she tried breathing.

I-I-I h-had a nightmare. She stuttered in between stutters and sobs.

Mari it's okay. I reassure her hugging her as tight as I could to keep her safe.

A couple minutes pass and Mari calmed down.

I don't want you to leave like papa. She murmured still hugging me.

Don't worry Mari, I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to keep you safe I promise. I feel tears well up in my eyes and my vision goes blurry.

I know we miss papa, I know we haven't been the same for a year as well as mami. I know we're starting to loose her and the house. But you're not going to loose her love and us. Okay Mari? I'll be right here for you.. I mumbled.

Mari slowly nodded.

I wish papa was here. She said bluntly.

Me too Mari.

It hurt to think like this. To know that we're in reality and not in our dreams, to realize the person you loved the most is gone in reality but in your head you can still hear there laughs and feel there smile and presence. There warm hands wrap around you in a tight hug or place hands on your shoulder saying everything is going to be okay even though it's not.

After I calmed down Mari and tuck her back, I hear the door unlock and my ma walks in.

Why are you still awake? You have school. She said in a firm tone.

I'm sorry mami, I just couldn't sleep and I decided to check if Mari was asleep too.. 

I mumbled ashamed as if I did something wrong 

Well what are you waiting for? Go back to sleep. She basically yelled at me and I nodded quickly.

I walked faster to my room and take a quick glance at my mom before closing my room door. I snuggle back inside my blankets and sigh. Goodnight world.

1215 words oh my gosh😭