The Bianjing Female Doctor Has a Melon Eating System

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Chapter 231 Fear

　　After hearing this, the Queen fell into deep thought. Although the Queen and the Emperor had been married for many years, and although they had had a good memory, had been respectful to each other, and had supported each other, the two eventually drifted apart because of their own goals, and no longer had the harmonious relationship they had in the past. So although the Queen was the person who was most familiar with the Guan family and the person closest to the Emperor, she was now a little confused about the Emperor's thoughts.

　　"I haven't talked to the butler about my personal affairs for a long time. What is he thinking now? Actually, I can't tell for sure." The queen said somewhat gloomily.

　　The queen actually hates this kind of things, situations that are beyond her expectations. She is a person who likes to plan everything, and then proceed step by step according to her plan. Therefore, the queen hates things that are beyond her expectations very much, which will catch her off guard. In order to prevent this kind of situation from happening, she has set up many backup plans, but under this very critical situation, the queen's backup plans may not be able to cope with the sudden situation, which makes her feel very uncomfortable in her heart.

　　"Empress, please don't be anxious. Although what I said may sound a bit alarmist, the current situation is not a bad thing for us. We are generally under control. What we have to do now is to prevent any mistakes in the tiny details and prevent the butler from finding opportunities to rebel against us. So I would like to ask Your Majesty to think carefully about what other means the emperor has to fight against us. Or, please think carefully about what weaknesses the butler can use to fight against us?" Leng Xiang's face looked a little unnatural.

　　When the Queen heard Leng Xiang asking her what her weaknesses were that the Emperor would use to counterattack her, her expression changed immediately. She immediately understood what Leng Xiang meant.

　　"Leng Xiang, why did you suddenly become so worried today? You kept telling me to be careful and cautious, and to beware of the Guan family. You kept asking me to think about what would be used by the Guan family to rebel against us. So you were asking me about this. You asked me to think about my weaknesses that would be used by the Guan family as a handle. Are you referring to that child?" The queen's face turned very bad. Leng Xiang's words undoubtedly stabbed her heart like a sharp knife. She did have a weakness, which was that child. The child that the queen and her beloved gave birth to many years ago. The child that the queen gave birth to many years ago in order to rebel against her father and family, risking treason and the possibility of having her family confiscated and her clan exterminated. The child carried his past years. Although it was a bad result, and although that unswerving relationship brought great harm to the queen, the queen still did not regret giving birth to that child.

　　"Empress, you know what I want to say, so I won't go into details." Leng Xiang did not deny that she was indeed referring to Xie Huaichu's matter.

　　"I don't care what you think. I will never touch that child. You know that I owe that child a great debt. I could neither give him a complete family nor normal parental love. I left him in a family full of lies and deception. I have never seen him in decades, and I have never asked about him. It's like I abandoned him. So I owe that child a great debt. I feel that even if I give him everything I have, I can't make myself feel at ease. I wish I could give everything I have to that child, even if I am no longer the queen. The reason why I haven't thrown everything away now is because of my own selfishness. I have done enough to that child, and I owe that child enough. I can't do that to that child just to prevent the officials from catching me. This is impossible. I can't do that to anyone else." The queen knew what Leng Xiang meant. Leng Xiang wanted her to cut off all her concerns. This cutting off all concerns included but was not limited to erasing the child from the world.