hate

Hatered

I always feel something in my body that hurts like my back hurts and I just keep it to my self and don't tell my parents because maybe I have some kind of sickness that is expensive I don't want them to waste money on me I know there angry at me because I don't do somethings and I forget somethings but I love them even tho I feel pain I hide it

New chapter I did good things and decorated some things that my parent own but they did not like it even one bit I worked hard on the things but it's OK that they don't like it I'm just gonna hide again what my true feelings are

I know now what is my goal in life my goal is to die because I know the world will be better of without me. I better chose hell to be punished I. Have so many sins even jesus and god don't know me because yeah I am dumb ugly worthless I'm such a bad person. I think I'll die by suicide or il stab my self

Tommorow when my mom is asleep and my dad is working I'm planning to suicide I'm gonna stab my self I'm happy about it so they can live a better life. My plan did not work because I didn't wake up early so. Yeah

We have guest today my parents just yelled at me because I dropped the blanket on
The visitor I mean Im not surprised because as I said I am the most not liked ugly dumb mean I'm a dumb delusional person I am a very dumb and ugly person

I hope my plan will work Im planning to suicide but the time has to be right. I wish I was never been born I hate my self. When I die my wish is for everyone to be happy no one can be sad and my dog will be loved

I hate hate myself

We have guests over. I told my parents I was gonna cook the guests laughed at me they said I was was always hungry they saw my belly they said I was fat. I meant it is true I'm also ugly dumb worthless I am useless and yeah my parents also say I'm fat so I'm gonna try to not eat so I can day and loose weight Im gonna try to loose weight as soon as possible