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Sign

Do you ever wish for a sign when you just can't decide on your own?

I can't seem to let go of the idea of us.

Before we broke up I told him about a sign... a sign that I could be pregnant.

Ofcourse I already searched the web for possible reasons and out of all those he chose to ask this,

"Have you had sex with someone else?"

No. I did not but fuck. That question is beyond BS.

a) I could be pregnant and if I wasn't chosen as the next mother of God then I'm a hundred percent sure the child is his.

b) I can't decide when to let go of that endearment ring.

c) I threw all the pictures but my mom managed to keep some. His graduation pictures both intermediate and college years. I can't decide if I'll just return them in time or simply burn them.

See the reason why I threw them is to be able to move forward without those little things because I know how painful it is to see your partner's ex-lover's love remnants and keeping it would be painful but returning it to him is unbearable.

So I thought of a brilliant idea.

Period.

If I have my period then everything will be solved.

a) Not pregnant. No more what IFs.

b) I can dispose of the ring since keeping it as a memoir will be useless since I am not a mother-to-be anytime sooner.

c) And lastly I don't need pictures of his for me to be able to show to our offspring.

Guess what?

3rd of January year 2015 I started my period.

;)

This is fate saying, "This will the last time I am giving you a warning sign go back to that guy and you're done."

So much for a sign.