The Inconvenience

Chapter 6: The re-visit.

I wake up right before my clock starts letting out the annoying alarm. I never woke up being so excited to do something like this in my life for a long time. I rush to the shower, brush my teeth, fix my hair for the first time in a while and let it out this time. I moisturize my face, using the products Tajaku bought me while I stayed at his home. I look healthier in a sense when I actually take care of myself. I put on a white skirt, a light pink tank ruffle top because of today's warm weather, white leg warmers, my cleaned loafers and some gold jewelry to make my outfit pop. I think my new impression would be good enough. I walk to the kitchen and quickly put together a bagel with some orange juice on the side. As soon as I finish eating, I toss my dishes in the dishwasher, grab some gum, my small purse and my phone just in case he wants to exchange numbers again. I walk out locking my doors feeling a sense of random joy, excitement and nervousness in my heart all at once. I walk upwards, remembering the car directions. I chose to walk, deciding that it'll be better so that I could physically focus on my surroundings more. I start walking out after locking my door, focusing and remembering all of the paths that the car took to go back to my house from his.

I am now walking for ten minutes. There are two pathways I met but I think I got lost trying to decide which one the car went in when the driver took the U-turn. I don't see any sign of his house at all. I do what my heart desires and take a turn doubting at the same time that it's the right one. I look down the block and my spine shivers. I see his house.. I walk quicker than ever down the street making it to his house. As I get there in the corner. I slow down. My anxiety goes up. I got scared.. Will he appreciate my visit back..? I stare at his door from a distance and watch it, waiting till I calm down. All of the sudden as I'm watching, I see that his doorknob starts moving, opening the door. Is he coming out side.? I back up into the next house's corner to watch from a distance as I see him walk out with a fresh leather jacket, Black, skinny jeans and black loafers, his hair cut looks a bit off now too. Did he change over the weeks.? I look closely again and see a girl with long, black straight hair, light skin and has a long pink spring dress with white sandals showing her white painted toes. I see her coming outside after him. He grabs onto her hand and walks her. My heart sinks to my stomach and my eyes get glossy knowing that I can no longer confess. He has a girlfriend..? How did he fall in love that fast? Did he lie to me about being lonely.? Why do I feel this way when I didn't even feel that romantic towards him? Why is my heart feeling this way.? Am I just realizing feelings that I never knew I had.? I watch them walk out of the house in shock. They began walking down in my direction as I'm in the corner in shock, unable to move. I should've never come back.. A tear runs down my face as I blink. At least.. He's happy, that's all what matters.. Right.? They come closer to me as I realize that they are fully walking in my direction. Oh no, they probably saw me. I must go, I cannot interfere with their love life. I was never invited to come over anyways. I think that my anxiety was right after all for once. I still cannot process how he's fallen in love with someone that fast. And whatever im seeing in general. All of the changes in just weeks and months.. It roams my mind. "Bye brother!" I pay no attention to what he says but hear his voice, I have to go now. "Is th-hat N-niya.?" I hear him again, my heart skips a beat. I can't look back. I start to run. All of the sudden, I hear him chasing me from behind. "N-NIYA.? IS THAT YOU..? WAIT.. COME BACK!" I hear him yelling, coming closer. My tears are running even faster. No, I can't interfere with his new life, I can't. He catches up to me, I can hear him coming closer and closer. I'm out of breath. I can't run anymore. "PLEASE, STOP! I CAN'T LET YOU GO THIS TIME! AND IF IT'S NOT YOU.. please just turn around so that I can confirm go back home.." I hear him say, a few inches behind me. My eyes widened. I freeze and immediately look back. I see him wearing completely different clothes. Fully dressed in gray from top to bottom, his hair cut back to normal, he's without the girl, all alone. I'm confused.. Did he change in a span of seconds? Where is the girl.? What's going on.? I watch his eyes widen as I look at him out of breath gasping for air, trying so hard not to make an ugly face while catching a breath. "N-n-niya." Tajaku says. I can see his chest move up and down rapidly through his shirt. I have no words. My head is filled with confusion. My face turns red. "I have to talk to you Niya, Right now." He says coming a bit closer but still, giving me my personal space. "Ever since you left, I've never felt the loneliest I've felt in my entire life. I couldn't sleep, watch movies, or eat straight for days thinking about how much happiness you've given me over the weeks. I thought that everything was going to go back to normal, but I guess that I was wrong. The day you left my house and got driven off, It felt like my heart shattered into pieces without someone shattering it. I went back home realizing all of this. I cried out, I should've never let you go. I enjoyed your rants about nature, our movie and cooking times so much. Your cries, they broke my heart knowing how much value I see in you, knowing the fact that you cannot even see it yourself breaks my heart even more. I've been holding this back but, ever since the day I met you, you were the most mesmerizing girl ive ever seen with a hidden, great personality. I didn't want to tell you or show you because I obviously didn't want you to feel uncomfortable. You filled me and my home up with company. When you left, It felt like a piece of me was gone. I'm sorry to overwhelm you with all of this but. I had to confess. I love you Niya from the bottom of my heart. I truly love you so much, Everything about you. Especially the smile you'd give me after you would stop crying. I love you." He says with his eyes watering, out of breath. My eyes began to water again after confusion and I can no longer hold back. This confession is my breaking point. I can't believe that we are on the same page. I pushed all of my confusions and unanswered questions to the side and ran to him, giving him the biggest and tightest hug ever. He gives me a soft but tight hug back, matching my energy. All of my tears flood onto his shirt. My heart is beating so fast that I cannot even let out my words properly. "I c-came here to say the exact same thing. I d-don't think that I can go back home this time. I want to spend the rest of my life with you." I say, shutting my eyes tightly, gripping onto him not letting off of the hug ,lending all of my strength to him in his arms with my face buried in his shoulders. I haven't sobbed this badly in a long time. "I love you too, Tajaku. I miss home, I really do." I say, trying to calm down my cry in the comfort of his arms. I can feel his heartbeat thumping in his chest. "Really..? Do you mean it.? "Tajaku asks in a low but weak tone. I don't even hesitate to answer, letting all of it out. "Yes, YES I DO." I say. There is absolutely nothing in my mind but this extra long hug. I can feel his hands suddenly grab on to my waist below my stomach, picking me up and placing me onto his shoulders using his hands to hold onto my back and legs. He starts walking at a fast speed. Making it to his house, (" home"). I open my eyes to the sound of him closing his door with one hand and bringing me to the kitchen counter. He places me onto the counter holding both of my hands, gripping on tightly. Kneeling down to look into my eyes. "Tell me, Tell me your feelings." he says in a low voice. "I- have been getting more lonely day by day, feeling less motivated, crying more, becoming more fragile, and gaining emptiness since the day I left this house. I broke down as soon as I got home because I realized that the wind blew away the sticky note with your phone number. N-not even nature could heal me after that.. That's when I realized how much impact you have put in my life, all of the unconfessed, stored love and compliments I had for you. I love you. Tajaku. I really do.." I say looking into his eyes, allowing my tears to fall. "Can we spend the rest of our lives together and never be empty again.? I can't let you go this time." He says in a passionate tone gazing into my eyes, begging me. "Yes!" I say. He let go of one of my hands and moved one of my hair strands to the side behind my ears, getting up and continued looking into my eyes. He stood up and picked up my chin, massaging it with his thumb, coming closer to me inch by inch, hovering over me. "Do you promise me that we will be by each other's side forever.?" I ask, gazing into his eyes. "Yes, I promise". He says bringing his face closer to mine, having me feel his breath and lips touch, until finally.. we kissed. My heart feels like I am running a constant marathon. But then I remembered what happened earlier again with the girl and I quickly backed away in confusion. "W-wait.. what about the girl outside that you were holding hands with.?" I say keeping my hand holding onto him. He lets out a giggle. "Are you talking about my twin brother outside, Kajaku.? The dude I was saying bye to before I started running after you?" He asks me while still keeping his tone low. My mind comes to realization. That's why his hair cut seemed off and his clothes were changed. I thought that I was going crazy for a second. "That was your brother.? I thought that, that was you, that's why I ran away because thinking that, that was you and a new girl, I didn't want to interfere with your love life. I thought you changed your style and everything." I say getting a relief, thank God it wasn't him. "No, I could never. If I had to wait till you'd come back in years, then I'd wait. I want you Niya, No one else. My heart told me to pick you off the ground, and I'm glad that I did." Tajaku says, putting his hand on my chin again, holding it up, massaging my face. My face gets red. I never knew I wanted him all along. That kiss a few moments ago gave me a shock but I wasn't surprised, I felt like something like this would happen as soon as I entered his home. I allowed it to happen, I can't resist a kiss coming from him. My face's redness got louder and louder as he stood there for a quick minute analyzing me with my face in his hand as I looked at him seeing how attractive he is up close.

A few days later, after allowing our confessions and love remaining free and making our final decisions, Tajaku decided to walk me back to my house. He stands outside my door and waits for me outside of my home. I come back outside with suitcases and bags full of all of my things that I want to take with me. The dark and gloomy house was empty and eventually got sold. He didn't allow me to give him an ounce of the money that I got from selling the house.