I SOLD YOU (Omegaverse) <Spicy>

Chapter 4 <Vent to me>

My family. Just the thought of having to think about my mom makes me feel emotional. I took a deep breath and tried to gather and organize my thoughts. He doesn't have to know every detail.

„W-well.... Where do I start.... My mom was an Omega and my Father is a Beta. Their marriage was arranged by their parents. Father was rich at that time and his only reason, why he agreed to marry my mom, was because of her beauty. It was a loveless marriage and I hate the way I was born.... I hate that she had to go through that.... He threw himself at her many times... he raped her.... And that's how I was born... How could I like my life knowing that...? Knowing that I wasn't made out of love? That my mom went through so much pain...? I can't accept myself for being an unwanted child..." I pulled my legs close to my chest, hugged them and rested my chin on top of them. Ace moved to sit closer to me, but was careful to keep some distance.

„She....looked just like me. I'm a spitting image of my mother... which makes it hurt more, because every time I look into the mirror-" my voice cracked. I tried hard to hide it, by clearing my throat, but Ace wasn't having it one bit. „It's alright, take your time. Everything's okay. Let's not push it, just breathe." He mentally said "screw the distance" as he moved to sit right beside me. He wrapped a protective, strong arm around my shoulders, making me feel more at ease.

„I see her in myself every time... She died when I was 6. I was told that it was an attack, but because I was just a kid, no one wanted to tell me how it happened and who did it. They even said "Your mother was attacked," instead of "murdered," because they didn't want to push it. But I'm almost certain that she was killed by a group of Alphas. Everybody was always so jealous of my father, for having my mom as his wife. They all wanted her... She must have gone through a lot of pain and she definitely didn't deserve that. She was the nicest person I've ever met in my entire life..."

„I'm so sorry.... I'm so sorry, baby." He whispered into my ear and moved me to sit astride on his lap, so that he could hug me properly and also for me to have a shoulder to cry on. I of course gave in pretty easily, wrapped my arms around his neck and let him hold me. „At least 4 times a week, I dream about her. It's either a good dream, of her and me playing together when I was still a kid, or it's a literal nightmare, of me being tied up and having to watch her get beaten up to death..." I cried out in despair. „Sh shhhh..... I'm right here. It's okay." He trailed his hand up and down my back to create some sort of comfort for me.

„She deserved so much better... She always tried her hardest to take the hit instead of me..." He stiffened as I said it. „Wait....What did you just say..?" He pulled me away to look at my face, which was stained with tears. He cupped my cheeks and started brushing my tears away with his thumbs. „Baby, I know this is hard for you, but please, I need to know. Was your father beating you..?" He asked softly, while looking deeply into my eyes. I sniffled and tried to take a deep breath, so that I could continue.

„U-um.... It was b-because.... He had big p-plans...for his upcoming baby, which he t-thought would be a Beta and a boy... He was furious when he found out that they were expecting a girl...." I tried my hardest not to break down completely. Ace frowned, I saw his jaw clench and how he was trying to keep himself under control as he was still holding my cheeks. „S-so he at least prayed that I would be a Beta, but... He got a useless Omega either way..." I paused for a moment, to take a deep breath. „He yelled at me every day, for small nothings... Then he started hitting me, sometimes with his belt, but I remember him using his hands more... My mom...was always there to take the hit instead of me... How could I like my life as a useless Omega, when it's what brought my mom so much pain..?!" My voice broke as I just screamed out. „IF-!! IF I WAS A BETA, FATHER WOULDN'T HAVE THE NEED TO HIT US!! MY MOM WOULDN'T HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT! SHE WOULDN'T HAVE LEFT THE HOUSE THAT DAY, TO GET ME SOME NESTING PILLOWS!! SHE WOULD HAVE SURVIVED! SHE WOULD BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW!!!" All these years, I held it locked inside me. I've never told my thoughts about my life to anyone. So now when I have someone who is here for me, who's listening, I'm getting carried away with how many informations I'm giving out.