my story (reall story)

love is just in drama

it reminds me of myself, when I was 13 I fell in love with a boy at the same age as me but we lived in different towns one day when we were playing in the roof he sends her cousin to confess his feelings to me he was respectful me as a girl and I think he was shy ok the I looked at him move my head as a meaning of yes I accept your feeling because I was secretly crush on hem he hold my hand at the first time I can't never forget that day and I can't forget or last day, when we became together i told my sister first and she disagreed with me to love someone in this age and i didn't care of here thought but i didn't feel ok to hide anything about my parents so i told my mom and she also refuse especially his father is my father's friend and and because I am the favourite girl of my father, he trust on me more than my sisters and he expect a lot of things on my, at that time I didn't care about what mom said to me and I was still dating him then after a year of dating my family moved to another city and it is the same city as him we were at the same school i am seeing him every day but because the people around us we can't speak directly any way one day I back with my family to my old house in holiday and he also went to his cousin house i told my mom that I want to buy something from supermarket but i said that to meet him and in another way I never lies to my mom so Frist I went to supermarket to buy some chips and in my way back i was putting my headphones but the sound was to law so when he speaks and shouted with my name to stop walking at first I saw it was fun I just wanted to know if he gone come after me to ask my why I didn't stop walking or looking at him and I expected from my self to answer him that I just wanted to play with you to know if you would come after me or not , but what realy happened is he really came after me with his cousin ( my friend) but when he almost close to catch me i remember what my mom told me before 2 years i remembered my father if he knows that i love someone at this age and he gives me freedom because he really trust me I told myself
no my father is the most important person to me I can't do that  I can't break his trust like that  so I stopped walking and terun around looking at the only person I loved in my life then he asked me I called you a lot why you didn't stop  then I answered him with empty appearance on my face "I don't speak with stranger" he said am I a strange to you and I said yes really I can't forget the feeling of this moment when he said ok then he hold his cousin hand in his hand and leaves after he left I still stand in my place I couldn't move and I couldn't breath  I remembered the first time he bought me a present and I told my mom about it then she asked me to give it back to him then litter I saw my present in his cousin house instead of take it back with him , i really stayed at the same place for a while and never lookd   to me or asked me why I said that  but after he left I can't stop crying so I back home stayed I'm my room and I cried alot at this day I couldn't breath I felt that my heart was really hurting them mom and sisters knows that I end everything after years when I was at grade 11 my father send me to his house to take chemistry course because my ex's father is a teacher i told my sistrr to find snout teacher because i really don't want to se him but she said his father is the best teacher so everyday i went to his house i wish not tosee him but his father let hem watch us at the exame and i was impressed I can't write anything i forgot ever thing about chemistry all I was thinking about is to finish the exame and run away especially when the girl next to me speaks to me he looked at me and said no voice it was the first time to hear his voice from along time ago I really can't handle anymore then I give him my paper and leave
after that I hated chemistry so much , I really wanted to ask him If he thought of me all those years it had been 12 since we broke up and I lost the trust of love after those years all I need now Is completely freedom no love , no marriage just myself and my special world ( bl drama ,Chinese drama &
my idols in dramaa and Chinese bands)

.............

note : I swear this story is reall I can't forget him and I whis If I have the courage to ask him do you remember me ? why didn't you say anything when I said you is a strange person to me? why you didn't though that I was kidding or something like that maybe I can't handle leaving you and say yes it's a joke , every time I remember you my day became bad  like I can't stop crying while I am writing our story know if I was a coward so you what ? I never believe in love again it's just in drama not the reall life