Tangled In Fame

The First Meet

"The day I first saw you entering the green room in yellow hoodie and white skirt I had a crush on you." Mingu said with all hope of love in his eyes. ....... The day we met I remembered....

It was almost a month for me in Seoul, my stepmom already accepted me as her daughter either in pity or love Idk, but she was not evil stepmom as shown in tv series she was so kind to me. I already started regarding as her my mom although the place of real mom can never be fulfilled. His son yeah, my stepbrother Choi Seung Cheol, a stubborn 16 yrs. old teenager was not as kind as her, but he was not evil either, actually he always ignored me for a couple of days, obviously anyone would if suddenly a person comes to your life that too making your life worse, but he had a soft corner for me in his heart after all he was the son of that kind lady. I don't know how or why but after a week he started treating me kindly at least not ignoring me, maybe his mom advised him after all he was also lonely, and with time he also started regarding me as his sister and me too after all they were all I have. Our relationship was complicated for stranger. Even now if anyone asks about it, we don't know how to explain. May be the circumstances made us rely on each other and with time being best healer it gave me a best brother I could ever ask for.

On that day mom had to go out, and hyung was a trainee at Pledis entertainment, I acc. to them was not old enough to stay alone also, I myself wanted to go out for fresh air, so hyung decided to take me with him for a day. A group of almost 17 young boys were practicing to debut for idol group SEVENTEEN, it was what hyung told me before entering the green room and I silently followed his footsteps in fear of getting lost. Well not being arrogant but I was pretty with white pale skin, dark brown long hair, blue eyes, 160 cm tall and approx. 50 kg heavy, what could you ask more in a 14 yrs. old girl, these all features I inherited from my mom, from her husband the gift was my voice, from my childhood I had a talent of changing  voice without any tough practice but I never thought it as a career. 

Well coming back, when I entered the room, I was traumatized, the young boys few older than me, few of my age and few younger were fighting, laughing, beating, singing, dancing and chatting that too in a single room. Suddenly they all stopped, and a noisy room turned in pin drop silence as all the attention was on me as if they first time saw a girl. Maybe because I looked different from them not sure about them, but I was already in the culture shock. I was waiting for my introduction obviously from hyung as I was not fluent in Koreon, but he went straight to a corner room followed by 2 young boys. I was left alone in bunch of young boys who I can't even talk with because of language barrier. Not even 5 minutes they all were back in their chores, and few actually 3 came to me to talk maybe, I look enough foreigner so started talking to me in English actually just few words, they even more bad in English than my Koreon, so I started the conversation in Koreon to break the awkwardness. So, the 3 boys were Lee Seok Min, Kim Samuel and Kim Mingu. Seok Min and Mingu were of my age and Samuel was younger. Mingu keep staring at me I could sense his admiration with my 6th sense whereas the other two were just curious, while my eyes were finding hyung, I was regretting my decision of coming here, actually I was introvert ..... was because my personality changed dramatically after a time. 

I didn't had a great impression of Mingu still he became my hope to stay as we share a same passion FOOD, we discussed about food few words in English few in Koreon, we both could understand maybe it was our language,,,,... Food Language, he was staring at me idk but it didn't made me uncomfortable, Was I also admiring him ..???? DEFINITELY NOT because after an hour when hyung came out of room and told everyone I was his sister his eyes started ignoring me as if I was hot potato that he picked and left. Maybe because SCoups would have killed him, yeah, he was sacred of a protective brother. But it did bother me a little but after few seconds my attention was caught on other boys who were laughing and beating each other. Then hyung told me to get in a room and do my homework, I didn't joined the school yet, was going to but to divert my mind I was practicing Koreon so I could adopt the country easily. I stayed there for 7 hours while the others were practicing, I in the corner of room was eating learning and sleeping. Hyung looked on me a few times making sure I was comfortable, but I was still wondering why he left me for an hour Was he embarrassed or had any other thing to do....

At night before sleep I was still wondering that did, Mingu had a crush on me Yeah sometimes a slight sense of being admired made my overthinking to a next level, maybe because even living in America for 14 yrs. I never had a boyfriend, well it was okay there to have one at such age, but I still was single, all blame to my conservative mentality of being a one-man woman, saving my virginity for my future man, and having a marriage and kids with my first love. But where to find my first love. I always wondered where he was, Was he dead, or Was not born yet, Was he also saving his virginity for me or was he a playboy... all that was cleared until that day ..........

........TO BE CONTINUED