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panic attack ༄

tw: swearing,topics of suicide

chris pov

today i woke up with a pit of anxiety in my stomach. i couldn't shake it off,i even tried taking tums.

as i looked at myself in the mirror as a fixed my brown curls and fidgeted with my chain to make sure the gem is resting on my chest.

i felt like crying, i didn't know why i just felt like something was going to happen.

as i made the journey upstairs to the kitchen to grab an apple i was met with nick and matt on their phones. nick leaned up against the counter, matt sitting at the table.

"hey chris" nick says in a monotone voice. matt looks up at me and just waves. i felt so alone.

"hi" i say trying to show im a little upset by their reactions of me coming upstairs.

nick gives me a dirty look and then looks at matt who's looking confused. i just grab a honey crisp apple and walk back downstairs.

TIMESKIP!!

matt pov

i felt a little bad for my greeting to chris this morning but it was nothing to be super upset over on chris's half.

i swear i saw tears in his eyes as he walked down the stairs.

chris pov

i lay in my bed feeling empty and sad. it's just one of those days where i felt like shit.

i heard a knock at my door and it was matt. "yea?" i ask with a bit of attitude. "chris are u fucking kidding me?" matt says "tf do u want matt im just tired"

"you have not done the fucking dishes or taken out the trash all week and i've been letting it slide but im just done today. start doing your responsibilities it's so fucking annoying"  matt says in a fit of rage

"oh shut the fuck up matt maybe im just tired and sick of ur bitchass always bothering me. maybe it would just be better if i wasn't here huh matt?" chris says

"chri-"i  attempt to say as he storms  out and slams the door.

chris pov

i run to the front door,put on my crocs and leave the house. i don't know where im going but its better than being near Matt. at this point im blinded by my tears. i let them spill out as the cold air hits my face.

i've been walking for about 5 minutes and of course it starts raining. i decide to walk to a local park so i can sit down.

matt pov

"fuck nick come to the kitchen." i scream

"yes matt??" nick comes into the kitchen as he responds

"we need to go look for chris" i say

"what the fuck why is he ok??" nick asks

"i don't know he was talking about some "oh maybe the world would be better without me " when we were arguing" i respond with

"oh shit ok let's go i'll pull up his location" nick says his words laced with slight panic

we run to the car as the rain falls on us feeling like bullets.

"ok nick where is he??" i ask

"he's at lakeshore park" nick responds

"Alright pull up directions please" i ask

"yea ofc it's uhmmm 15 minutes away." nick says

"how the fuck did he get there so fast." i respond concerned

"i dunno but lets hurry before he gets sick." nick says and i agree.

chris pov

i've been sitting here at this park soaked for maybe 20 minutes sobbing my eyes out. my breathing unstable and choppy.

i see that stupid car pull up that i know by heart. matt and nick emerge from the car and run  towards me. im feeling light headed from my lack of air as a hand grabs me.

my vision is blurry and my ears are ringing to the point i just want to go to sleep..
hmm may-bee tha a goo ide-

my vision goes black

matt pov

"oh my god nick he's out cold!?" i say panicked

"fuck uh let's get him home right now." nick says and i nod in agreement.

i carry his body to the car and place him in the backseat with nick. is he getting the leather seats wet..? yes, do i care at the moment..? no. he's my baby brother and i need to help him.

TIMESKIPPPP

chris pov

i wake up soaking wet. matt and nick are standing over me looking extremely concerned and panicked

i blink a few times to clear my vision. i sit up and pull matt and nick into a hug.

"m-matt i-im sorry." i say through sobs.

"shh chris it's ok i forgive you i love you kid." matt says as he plays with my brown curls. sticking out everywhere from the rain.

"chris please don't say stuff like the world would be better without me i don't even want to think about u being gone i love u bud" nick chimes in

"i-i know im sorry im just so tired." i respond through a sob

"we can get you some help, someone to talk to that sound good?" matt says

"ye-yea" i say limiting my words as i feel extremely tired from earliers panic attack in the park.

"can i sleep with you guys tonight please." i say

"of course chris i love u" matt says

"i love u too chris don't forget that." nick says as well

timeskip

im changed into my fuzzy pj pants and a white tshirt laying in bed with my wet hair next to my best friends/ brothers. feeling so loved and so grateful for them.

"nick, matt i love you both thank you for everything today." i say as i start to drift away to sleep

"love u so much bud" matt says

"me too" nick says

my eyes flutter shut.

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hi loves this is my first chapter!
hope u enjoyed it!
love u all x
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