Someday, Someone's Gonna Love Me

_Chapter 1_

It was 2 am midnight and I found myself crying. Crying because of I miss her and dreamt of something terrible happening to her in Canada.

[ And yes, she's a girl. She is my bestfriend, yet.. Just go with the flow of the story.. :D ]

I never knew I was that so emotional like as fuck. At that moment I felt like I'm worthless. Like seriously, what was I doing? I was totally confused and so not sure of what is happening.
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o, I woke up like this and grabbed a glass of water and washed my face. I don't really got that, that time.

I was thinking of how should I fall asleep then. After for like 30 mins thinking, I thought about writing or expressing my feelings for her and ofc (duh?!) I won't give it to her. xD who would?

And I thought to myself that, I don't care how long the letter would be, but as long as I express my feelings and fall asleep and to ease the pain I am having inside.

Here the letter goes:

Dear Girl,

You are the one of my best friend ever... I can't explain how but, I'm so lucky I met a person like you. I am not regretting of what I did. I just like you. I know this is awkward, but I'm a bit nervous of what I am expressing rn. Girl, you are my one and only.. Can't you see? Can't you feel? Can't you notice? Ugh. Smh.

I know we're both girls but I can't help it. At first our relation that brought us together is 'Mother and Daughter' relationship. Then we gave up. Then it became 'Best friends' relationship.. I call you beh as a sign that you know. I awkwardly asked you that is it okay if I can call you beh? And you be like 'yeah. Of course!' And I felt happy that you accepted it. We've been together for like 2 years only and I think that isn't enough yet. Idk whyy... I hope you'll understand why. :)