For about a year I have had to deal with depression.Most nights I lost so much sleep and I always ended up crying.I felt like I was alone and life had no meaning to it.These led me to almost commiting.I always feel sad and I always feel like nothing in this world is true.I personally in social life and school don't really have people that I can trust.My parents don't seem to understand what it is like for being depressed.Every Tuesday I go therapy and discuss all these issues and the way I feel to somebody.I don't really know why I feel like this but I am trying to fix it.It has also made it difficult for me to follow my religion.I always have thought about not believing God but at the same time I am scared of him.My religion forbids us from committing so that us why I am still alive.Everyday I keep getting worse and worse and this had also started to take an effect on my physical health.I have had many health issues before and I don't know if this had made it worse or not.My head and eyes always hurt and my body is always hurting.I stay in my room all day on my phone or on my ipad (where I a currently writing this).My parents are really strict and have put me on screen time and have complete control over the Internet.When they close it I always drag myself downstairs and watch TV.Many people are going to say that my phone is the reason and spending to much time on gadgets is bad but it is probably the only thing actually distracting me from this.Iam honestly very tired and I want to end my life most of the time but I am really scared.
