BOTTOM MIKEY ONE-SHOTS

WE CAN SOMEDAY SEE THE SUN

Summary:

He struggles to breathe as water seeps deep within his soul. Suffocating his lungs and settling deep in his bones. Abyss residing in his eyes seemed so endless. Shadows of dark impulses lingering in his mind, eating his existence to it's core.

Was living always this hard? Or is it just he who made it easier?

Mikey would never get the answer to that question again. Because the light which one existed in his soul was lost forever.

Ken-chin just made living easier, he just gave meaning to his existence.

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Pairing: Drakey
Top: Draken
Bottom: Mikey

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The night has never been so limitless before. The endless galaxy never felt so empty and hollow. He could visibly see the darkness enveloping his soul, molding it in pretty shallow. He looked so beautiful yet his ugliness couldn't stay hidden. The melody of his heart was fading seconds by seconds, white washed hairs sprayed so beautifully on hardened road, making a halo on his head. He almost looked angelic, but he knew, there was nothing so angelic about him.

Dark eyes starred endlessly at the star filled sky, nothing seemed to change from when he was just a 12 year old kid, laying on rooftop, head carefully placed on his lap, yet looking back everything was different. So different that he couldn't find his own self familiar anymore.

Someone was screaming, maybe it was Haruchiyou. Mikey couldn't pinpoint exactly, was it really him or just the voices in his head screaming and blaming for all the horrible things which had happened in last 12 years, all because of him. Whoever it was, he didn't had the strength to stop him. An exhausting pain shoots through his body. Halting every thought and every image which was revolving in his head. Did everyone felt like this before? The pain, the exhaustion. Mikey was finally feeling it, which Baji had felt. He was finally feeling it, which Emma, Shinichiro would've felt when they went away to never come back. He was finally feeling it, the pain Izana felt when he took his last breath.

But something was weird, above all the feelings of pain and hurt the most he felt was happiness, relief. To finally be free, yet he couldn't at same time. The soft look, deep rough voice, hardened hands yet gentle touch was moving back and forth in the consciousness of his mind. The image of dragon tattoo, blonde locks, shaved head, geometrical black and white cardigan didn't let him close his eyes. Didn't let him have the peace be was searching for.

Mikey knew he has been ugly all along. He was ugly when he hurted Haruchiyou. He was ugly when Baji died. He was ugly when Emma left him alone. He was ugly when Izana had to close his eyes forever because he couldn't save him. He was still ugly, when he saw the blood seeping through Takemitchi's body. He was always ugly, with his unsettled emotions and darkness but somehow Ken-chin always made him feel beautiful. Better, always so gorgeous and ethereal.

Mikey knew, without Ken-chin by his side, he was always ugly with darkness around him. He could never be beautiful again, he could never see that light again. After all he was the one to push him away. But at same time he knew, What he did was right. To see Ken-chin and others happy he had to Push them away. After all he was a walking misfortune.

Mikey is selfish too. Because right now, he wants Ken- chin to hold him. When he was the one to push him away. He wanted Ken-chin to wrap his strong arms around him, to tell him that everything is going to be fine, to kiss his forehead gently like he always did. He wanted to see Ken-chin so badly, yet his body won't move.