Crash

Doubt

YUJI'S POV:

I lay on my bed with Yuko. She was reading a novel, not quite sure what novel because, I hate to say it, but I'm not sure if I care. I'm not sure if that's rude to say, but I don't know if my feelings for Yuko are even...real. Kugisaki set us up together following Yuko's return to Tokyo. While I didn't get to know her very well during middle school, now that I've gotten to know her, I don't really have much of an interest in her. She's a nice girl but, not much about her is very appealing to me..

..unlike Fushiguro.

Recently I have come to terms with my feelings towards Fushiguro. For a while I questioned my feelings for him, especially since sometimes he can be kind of a dick, but I love that about him. He's stubborn but he's grown to be very caring the more I get to know him. We've been friends for a few years now and...the romantic feelings I possess for him have grown. His dark, almost midnight-coloured spiky hair, his beautiful eyes, his body, everything about him is appealing to me. I want to take our relationship to a new level. But then..

..there's Yuko.

"Hey, Itadori. It's getting late. I think  might head home. Can you tell me the way out? I know I'm not supposed to be in your dorm. But I'm enjoying the time we've spending together"

"Sure. Uh, from here, walk down the hall, take a left and you should see the exit. I doubt anyone who sees you will care. You're not threading or anything." I hope she can't tell how disinterested I am right now in this conversation. I'm not happy that she's leaving necessarily...but I guess now I have more time to gather my thoughts in one place.

"Bye, Itadori." Yuko kissed me on the cheek before she left the dorm, placing her book and phone inside her handbag, and closing the door behind her.

I stayed in the same position on my bed for twenty minutes, throwing a baseball up and down as i stared at the white ceiling of my dorm. I have feelings for Megumi. I want him, not Yuko. But does Megumi want to be with me? Many times I have considered confessing my feelings to Megumi, but each time I have backed out. Our friendship would be ruined if my feelings for Fushiguro weren't reciprocated. He likely just sees me as a friend, but what do I know? Megumi can sometimes be emotionless, he's hard to read, well not when he's pissed off anyway. That's pretty clear, but is there any chance he likes me romantically? I WOULD want to have him by my side daily, that goes to show how willing I am to cherish him if we ever got together, but with Yuko, there's no spark.

Soon, I showered, and went to bed, still thinking about Megumi. I want him so bad, and maybe it's stupid to think these things, but i can't help it. I sighed, and switched off my lamp.