Eilish

Her.

"Hey mom, headed out soon!" I yelled from my room.
"Sounds good honey, text me when you are on your way back! Oh, and don't forget-" the door closed. I got into my car, and headed to work, no more than 30 minutes away. Today's photoshoot is scheduled with Billie Eilish, just the thought of it makes my heart flutter.

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As I went to open the studio door, I realized "Ahh my keys! How could I be so stupid?! I don't even have my coat, and-"
"Hey, did you need an extra sweater?"
I looked over my shoulder, and it was her. Standing there... looking at me. I blankly stared back, trying to find my words,
"It's ok, here." She handed me her sweater. "You can wear mine." I put it on, it smelled of vanilla.
"Thank you, uhm... my coworker will be here soon to open the door."
She paused and looked at me, tho I struggled to maintain eye contact.
"It is quite chilly out, wanna wait in my car?"
"I mean, sure! Thank you!" She opened the door for me, a little grin on her face. Silence filled the air. All I could do was look at her beautiful blue eyes, her cute little nose... my eyes wandered down to her lips. When she looked back at me I quickly turned the other direction, clearing my throat. Then my phone buzzed, it was Sammy, my coworker. I read the text;

I'm gonna be in late, prob another hour. Sorry girly!

"Damnit, Sam is gonna be late... again. She is the only other one besides me working in the studio today..." I looked at her, hoping she would find a solution. She looked at her watch, then back at me,
"Well, in the meantime... did you wanna get breakfast or something?"
"I would actually really like that, I'll buy,"
"No no, my treat. I've missed you." her words made me blush.

Billie and I have a quite interesting past. We were best friends during childhood, but drifted apart through the years. I never told her, but I had a crush on her. I was afraid it could ruin everything, so I kept to myself... distanced myself. I regret that.

The radio chimed in, breaking the silence. Billie began to sing along... I could listen to her for hours, her voice so angelic.

~~~

We walked into the diner, it smelled of freshly baked pie, the chatter in the background adding to the experience. We sat next to the window, the view of LA is really beautiful.

The waiter asked if we needed more time, I went to speak- but Billie began,
"No, I think we are ready. I'll have the house soup, and she will have 2 eggs, over easy, with bacon... not too crispy. And a side of sourdough toast, right?" She looked at me,
"Uh yes, thank you." As the waiter walked away, I turned to her,
"I'm surprised you remembered! We haven't ate here together in so long!"
"Of course, I remember everything about you." She winked at me. "Hey, I've been meaning to ask you... what made us fall apart? I mean we were so close. I miss us, you know."
My heart sank, I don't wanna tell her, but I have to... she deserves the truth.
Just as I opened my mouth, the waiter came with our food.
I completely bypassed the question, but my thoughts remained.

~~~

When we finished eating, we walked outside and stood against the wall. I looked at her,
"To answer your question from earlier, why we drifted apart? I- ehm-.... I- ugh." The words seemed to disappear from my mind... "You deserve the truth, Billie... I just am scared to tell you."
"Look at me, you can tell me anything. It doesn't matter, I will always be here."
I looked down at my feet, then back at her. The tension grew as the words spewed from my mouth;
"I had a really big crush on you growing up and I never wanted to tell you because I thought it would hurt you, and I never wanted to do that... so I distanced myself. And I'm so sorry, I should have talked to you or-"
"Hey, it's ok! Its ok!" She grabbed my hands,
"Like I said, I will always be here. Nothing can tear us apart. You are my best friend! Nothing will ruin that." she wiped my tears away.
I took a deep breath.
"Besides, I think it's cute." She turned to the car, opening the door for me once more.

As we drove off, Billie briefly looked at me and said "Don't beat yourself up about it. I may or may not have had the same feeling." My heart was pounding in my chest. I didn't know what to say.
"You know, I'm not really feeling a photoshoot today... we should watch a move at my place. If you want to of course."
"If you're ok with it, I'd love to."
She smiled at me, I smiled back.

I opened my phone to text Sammy I won't be coming in... but Billie pushed my phone down.
"Just us tonight, yea?"
I was visibly flustered, "yea" I said, putting my phone away. Her hand remained rested on my thigh.