Is this what love feels like?

1. Seriously?!

I wake up and hear my twin snoring from room next to mine.
My ears switch to the sound of moans and sucking.
Being me and me being curious I get up and follow the sound.
I end up at JJ's room and open the door.
To see a girl with her hands in his pants and him sucking her neck.
"Ewwww" I yell from the doorway.
JJ's mouth immediately moves away from her neck looking at me.
"Oh god, Mill" He says shocked.
"Who's she baby?" The girl asks.
"Yk the guy who owns this place, his twin sister so they both own the place" He says.
"Ohhh, so she just lives here?" The girl says stupidly.
"I'm also kind of his bestfriend too, right Jayj?" I say.
"Right"
I walk out of the room.
Nobody knew but I secretly liked him.
One thing I wish I knew was that he secretly liked me too.
I walk into John B's room.
"C'mon brother, get up, I can't stand bring up alone while JJ's fucking a girl."
John B knew what I meant, he and only him knew I liked JJ.
I throw a pillow at his head.
"Alright Alright, I'm up."
He says sitting up.
"I'll be in my room getting changed" I say walking to my room.
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I put this on:

I walk back out to the loungeroom/mainroom.
I hear the moans getting louder.
I walk into his JJ's room again to see the girl shirtless/braless/naked chest. And JJ in boxers and a naked chest, her in her underwear.
"Put your boobs away." I say to the girl.
The girl looks up and immediately pulls the covers over them.
"God Jayj, you have to?" I say annoyed.
"Grow a pear" I add.
"I have one, wanna see" He says joke flirtatiously.
"Sure" I say with a wink before walking out of his room and shutting the door and hearing the moans continue.
"Oh my fucking god, QUIET DOWN JJ" John B yells from the loungeroom/mainroom.
I roll my eyes.
"I'm gonna barf, it's so sickening" I say annoyed.
The girl walks out and puts her hand to my throat .
"This is for flirting with my baby" She says trying to grip my throat.
I pull her hand off my throat.
"Hey Jayj, come get your bitch" I yell.
She throws a punch and my eye swells.
I look at her angrily.
She punches me again making my cheek swell.
I punch her back causing her lip to split and her nose to bleed.
I look her up and down with my usual bitch-face.
JJ runs out and grabs her.
"Seriously Ames?" He yells.
"Your angry? At me?" "Wow" I say with an annoyed tone.
"I'll rip your face off" the girl yells.
"Good for you" I say with a chuckle.
I rub my eye since it's swelling from her punch.
"Imma go ice this" I say to my twin, glaring daggers at the other two.
I grab an ice pack thing and hold it to my eye.
Pope walks in from his bike ride to our house.
He feels the tension.
"Hey John B, Mill, JJ and...?"
"Louise" the girl says.
"C'mon let's leave JJ and his bitch alone to fuck until the world ends" I say angrily walking outside to John B and I's boat.
"What the hell did you do to her?" Pope says curiously.
"Nothing, she's acting like a selfish bitch as usual." JJ replies.
"Shut up" John B says in my defence.
The boys both walk out to me and get into the boat.

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We walk into the chateau (where John B and I live and basically JJ) to see JJ and the girl doing it on the couch.
My whole demeanour changes from laughing with my twin and my bestfriend to wanting to cry and barf.
"Ew" I say watching them.
"Get a room, wait you have two, one with your dad and one with me and Ames" John B says.
"Grow up JJ" Pope says clearly disgusted and he felt bad for me knowing I liked JJ.
"It's no of y'all's business, what I do" JJ says.
"Get the fuck out slut, I'm Tryna have fun with my baby." The girl yells at me with a chuckle.
"Seriously, your gonna let her talk to me like this JJ?" It was the first time I had used his real name in a long time.
He nods.
I look at the ground trying not to cry/breakdown/get angry, I didn't know which would happen, but one would.
John B glared at the girl.
Pope looks at JJ in pure disgust.
I run out of the house to the yard.
"Look what you've done man" John B says, clearly unimpressed that JJ has made his sister run out of the house.
I sit outside on the tire swing crying my heart out trying to not have a panic attack.
Why did he do that? It's not fair!
The tears stream down my face as I sit on the tire swing.
My heart beats faster and faster, my breathing starts quickening.
And before I know it, I can't breathe.
I'm having a panic attack, aren't i?
God not now.
I stare off and watch the water.
Holding my hands over my chest.
John B walks out and hears my heaving breathing.
He realises what's happening, since I'm known to have panic attacks regularly.
"Shh" I hear him say as he hugs me from behind.
"How could he?" "I'm his bestfriend, and he lets her talk to me like that" I say angrily, my forehead glazed in sweat.
"Does he have to live with us" I say angrily.
"C'mon Ames, you don't mean that." John B says.
Trust me I do, is what I wanted to say but I didn't instead I said, "I know I don't."
"I'll get him to make he girl leave or to go with her, alright?" John B says trying to cheer me up.
"Alright" I reply.

I walk back inside my eyes still puffy and my face still slightly red, my eye bruised from the punch earlier.
"Hey Mills" JJ says.
I ignore him and walk to my room.
"Can't ignore me forever Mills." He says.
"I sure can try" I yell from my room angrily.
"Leave her alone, alright she needs to recover." John B says.
"From what"
"The panic attack she just had."
"What?!"
"Mhm" "She actually might benefit from your comfort" John B says taking back his earlier decision.

"Mill"
"Go away"
"No" "John B told me about the panic attack"
"Ofcourse he did"
JJ sits next to me.
"You just let her talk like that to me"
"I know, I'm sorry."

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