Star crossed lovers (Red X Chloe)

No.3

𝐑𝐞𝐝'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯:    (𝐭𝐰: ⚠️𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐡𝟒𝐫𝐦⚠️

It's been a good two weeks since the what you can call "incident" happened with My Charming. Since then I have seen or heard from her besides once and it's been really messing with me. Does she not like me like that? Did I go to far? Is she disgusted of me? I shouldn't have even done that. Like how stupid could I be? I just ruined my first ever friendship. She did send me a text saying she's staying with her brother's girlfriend and if I knew where that was I would have already went there but I don't,and I've been sending her a bunch of letters apologizing.

I'm really starting to regret even trying anything with her because what was I thinking? Trying to kiss my bestfriend? Stupid? I know right. I just don't think and now she hates me and won't talk to me. It's been so bad lately I haven't been able to sleep or eat ever since she ghosted me. My mental health has also been off the charts bad there's been about 4 times the past 2 weeks that principal Uma had caught me trying to finish it and now I go to therapy 3 times a week and see a psychiatrist once every weekend.

I'm so lost it's just been so horrible like I didn't know it would be so hard to live my normal life without her by my side literally every minute of every day.

𝐂𝐡𝐥𝐨𝐞'𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐯:

"Chloe!! You have yet again another letter from Red. Why can't you just give the poor girl a break?" Said my brothers girlfriend Audrey. "Because." I said. "Because? Because is all you have to say!?! The poor girl is obviously going crazy and you've been ignoring her for almost 3 weeks straight. Why are you avoiding her for doing something that you obviously wanted to happen? And yes I do know, I hear all your conversations with Chad about her."

"The girl obviously loves you and you just ghost her like she's nothing. How stupid can you be?" She said. "Oh and you better know I'm definitely making you read this one because I opened it and read it and it's really bad compared to the other ones." She continued. "You read my letters?" I ask. "Yes I did and there's nothing you could do about it." She said with arms crossed and a stern look on her face. "Fine give me the damn thing and I'll read it." I said, she handed me the letter and I opened it.

𝒟ℯ𝒶𝓇 𝒞𝒽𝓁ℴℯ，
   𝐈𝐦 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢 𝐝𝐢𝐝, 𝐢 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭. 𝐈 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐭'𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐬. 𝐌𝐲 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐝𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐝 𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐚 𝐅, 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐚𝐝, 𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧'𝐭 𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫. 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝟑 𝐭𝐨 𝟒 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐰. 𝐈𝐦 𝐬𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐢 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐨 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡. 𝐈𝐦 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐳𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠? 𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞? .... 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐂𝐡𝐥𝐨𝐞 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤.