eyes of heaven ~ english version ~ daryl dixon

prologue

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March 16, 1999

"did you hear the news?" said one of my two friends intent on opening her locker
"no?" I replied with a doubtful tone, what was she talking about?
"That boy of fifth grade, who failed three times, his mother died" I was sorry to hear those words, I would never have been able to imagine myself without my parents, I would have felt lost especially without my mother.
"yes I heard, they say she set herself on fire with a cigarette" replied Matilda, my other friend.
Who knows if what they said was true, if so, that woman must not have been well, so I could only imagine the situation at home that boy could have.
"Well if we want a dose we also know who to ask" said Julia laughing together with Matilda. I frowned, but what were they talking about? and what's more, it seemed like they were doing it in an ironic tone, how could they joke about topics that didn't even concern them

Julia noticed my expression
"Selena, where do you live?" she giggled a little
"Under a stone with Patrick Stella, come on, what are you talking about?" I urged her to spill the beans and make myself understood
"His brother is a drug dealer, he's under house arrest now"
"I think he should be there too, I don't trust him to wander around the corridors" she said referring to that boy, well, I didn't know who he was but if there were rumors like that about me, I would have locked myself in the house the next day, or under the stone in short.
I depended on other people's opinions, I was obsessed with the rumors that were going around about me, I was afraid that suddenly everyone would start hating me and talking badly about me

My name wasn't actually Selena, my mom gave me a name that if my classmates heard I would be labeled forever.

January 6, 2001

"Mom, mom please help me I can't control myself" I said in total panic, my hands hurt, I felt sharp pains all over my body and I couldn't see anything, completely black, darkened.
"Vespera love, calm down, it's time"
"Mom, it's time for what? Mom please" I was starting to gasp for breath and I felt thick tears sliding down my cheeks and then continuing down my neck.
"I'm here love" she said putting her hands on my arms, thus calming me down.
"Don't fight honey, it's okay, let her go" what was she talking about? I wasn't like my mother, we all knew, neither me, nor dad, nor my brother were, mom hadn't given her genes to anyone.

I calmed down but the pain didn't go away, I was finally starting to see again.
I looked around, I noticed my clothes stained black, like ink, I opened my eyes wide in shock.

"let - go" my mother whispered to me, I didn't know what it meant, I didn't know how I was supposed to 'let go' of nothing, because that was what I knew, nothing.

Somehow I did it, I suffered the pains of hell, those pains were excruciating, I felt pulsations along all my limbs.
I don't remember what happened next, I probably fell asleep in my mother's arms.

September 2, 2003

"Vespera, it's your brother on the phone, he said it's important" Michonne shouted at me from the other side of the room.
"I'm coming" I said out loud so she could hear me.
I knew the 'important' part of my brother Jack so he probably just wanted to bother me.

When I turned 18 my mother sent me to this big mansion, a kind of school for people like me.
Venefire, witches so to speak. At the same time as studying to be a venefira, I also went to university, graduated in law from Harvard and got a master's degree in economics and political science from Cambridge. Was I a nerd? Not at all, I simply had a terrible memory and was very curious, even before entering the first year at Harvard I had already studied the whole program.

I had two other brothers after Jack, Teseo was the eldest and he was also the one who restored peace when we argued, he was so ethically correct that when I wanted to speak badly of someone who had wronged me he went into the other room because he didn't want to hear. Then came Achilles, on his license in addition to Achilles Blenheim in my opinion he had the annotation "big dickhead", he always made out of place jokes and managed to make even Jack feel uncomfortable who was no joke about being an idiot either. Then came me, then Jack, and the youngest Angel.

She too, like me, was sent to the coven at 18.

'Vene' comes from the Latin «venenum» which means poison, and 'Fire' evokes fire, energy, passion and power.

There were few of us in the coven: 8.
If only one had betrayed us, therefore denied her Ego, denied herself her energy to abandon the coven, we would have died one by one.
All, all except the Maxima: the chosen venephyra, the strongest, the most powerful, she would have lived regardless of what happened.
In the coven no one demonstrated great powers such as to be defined as maxima, but we cared about the right thing.

In the coven we learned to dominate ourselves, and not to be dominated by our energies as had happened to me two years ago.

The coven was far from my home, it was in Pennsylvania and my family and I lived in Kentucky.

"Tell me Jack Blenheim" I said to the phone's microphone mouth, calling him by his first and last name
"Vespera, I don't know how to tell you actually" I didn't worry too much, Jack was a certified idiot, he probably wanted to scare me or something
"oh come on Jack I don't have all day"
"Vespera I'm serious" he said
"tell me" still untrusting about his seriousness
"last night Mom and Dad were coming back from one of their dinners, an idiot, a drunk hit their car on the way home"

breathe Selena, breathe, maybe they're okay or they just got hurt, nothing definitive right?

"it happened... god... and how are they Jack?"
Jack didn't say anything, he sighed into the phone and then started crying
"I'm sorry Vespera" he whispered
"I'll come as soon as possible Jack" I hung up without giving him time to answer me and walked towards the principal's office. I held back my tears but unfortunately it was stronger than me, I started crying even before I got to the door.

My tears were black as pitch, I couldn't see anything when I cried.
They were black because of the great pain I felt in doing so, crying for me was excruciating more excruciating than for other people, it was something that belonged to few venefires.
I rarely let myself go, crying was not only painful but also uncomfortable, the black stains never came off.

I knocked on the door once and the principal told me to come in but I didn't even understand where the doorknob was.
"Principal Elowen I can't see" I said with a hint of shame
I felt her get up and walk on her heels, open the door and take my hand to help me sit down.
"What's up vespera" she said worried
"brother...my brother told me...he called me" I said sobbing
"mom and dad..my mom and dad..my brother told me they died in an accident" I said shaking, I was sobbing and stammering at every word.
"oh honey, I'm sorry"
"ask her...I came here to ask her if I could...I could..go to my brothers, to be close to them" I was really ridiculous, talking like that was ridiculous.
"sure vespara, certainly" she helped me up, took me to the bathroom and advised me to rinse my face.
"did I stain something?" I said, referring to my tears
"I don't think so, but it doesn't matter anyway, understand?"
principal elowen was amazing, loving, kind, empathetic. A beautiful woman with icy blue eyes and wavy blonde hair.
Always elegant and well dressed, with red lipstick and pearl earrings.

June 8, 2007

"Michonne you can't do that" I tried to say at the top of my voice
"Oh yes I can vespera" he replied as he finished packing his clothes
"Michonne it never happened god damn it, stop believing everything that criminal tells you" I said referring to the one who would soon become the father of her child.
"He showed me the evidence you whore that is, I trusted you"
Mike had shown him I don't know what about me and him.
I had never been with his boyfriend, I had only seen him a few times at Christmas dinners in the coven.
"I don't know what he showed you but it's not true"
"I'm tired of you, of you, of this whole gang" she said closing her suitcase and heading towards the door of the dormitory
"Michonne you'll kill us all" she blamed one of ours.

She didn't listen to anyone, left the villa and disappeared forever.

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