When They Colide

piolet

I was bloody.
The blood on my face... I could taste it on my lips as I licked them. the red... The red... Fuck...
It tastes of metal.
I feel the rain pouring on my face. My head rested on the cement. A splash of red water pooling around my head.
I can't feel my hands... I can see it trickling all the way down my forearms... Everything about this... Is oddly calming....

I stand. My knees weak. I'm wobbling. My hips shaking. I feel like I'll break any second.

He is gone... I'm fine...

My palms scrape the pavement as my bloodied nose smacks the ground aswell. My jenes are ripped. My knees... Elbows... Hands... Face... Bloody. Everything seems to be red...
I get back up. Walking through the rain. The hard rain. It feels lighter than usual. It feels...

Heavenly.

As I walk through the door, nobody is home. As expected. I walk towards the washroom. The sink- already brown- stained with more red. My hand smashing into the mirror overhead the sink. It's everywhere.
Why is it raining again? I look down to my hands. Water on them. I'm Inside... No... It's me...
I'm sobbing. Yet- not making a sound. It doesn't even hurt anymore. It just aches the feeling of emptiness. Like I'm missing something. Like I need more.

I turn on the tap. Running my shaking fingers under it. Watching the beautiful colors...

I undress... Stripping... Taking my muscle shirt over my head. My frail body... I can see my ribs. Every bone in my spine... They ache. The red is smeared on my chest. I undo my belt. My baggy jenes dropping to the floor. I try to step out, but stumble and trip. My head hits the tub. And I lay on the ground- yeat again- for a while. Then I stand again. Like nothing happened. I pull down my boxers. Leaving myself bare. To hang. I don't pay any mind to the cold chill running over my skin. I turn on the tap to the tub.

It's full. I step in. Lay down. I don't fit... My upper body hangs out from about my head to my under breast. My  knees out of the water. I cup my hands and scoop the water. Letting it trickle over my shoulders.

Splash.

I let my face sink into the water. My skin peeling from my wounds. I gasp. Jolting up and caughing water. Blood... Whatever was in my mouth. My wounds dripping as I sit... The water turns freezing... My fingers turn pruned...

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"Hey, May!" He shouts... It's kai... We go to the same training gym... He's my acquaintance...
Glasses... Dark, short hair. Muscular.. tall... Perfect... What's not to like?

He pokes my cheek. "Your face is shit. The fuck did you do? Why are you at school today?"

"I fell"

"Like shit you fell! You have a black eye, and cuts and bruises all over you. I think your... Your nose is broken? Is there blood staining your hair??? Under your fingernails even" he pokes at me.

"I said, I fell"

"Yeah, alright. Everyone will stare." Like I care. Everyone already stares.

"I already have gotten many glares"

"I bet" kai.... Is my only friend... He is the only person who stands me... I'm in my junior year of university. He is also. He... Is definitely a player... "Let's get to class. I'll buy you lunch"

"I don't need lunch"

"Mhm. I can see your cheekbones."

"Isn't that a good thing?"

"Not in your case????!?!!?!? Your like, what? 6'4? And you weigh like... 54kg??? (Around 120lb) You need to be fed..." He exclaims.

"Fine. Can we get Jamaican patties?"

"Fine... I don't see why you like those things..."

"They are good.."
We head off to class.

Of course... As planned... Everyone looks... Why am I even in this department?... I guess I enjoy biology...

"We have a new project." Mr. Laveah says right before class is dismissed. "I will pair you in partners from a random spinning wheel." Fuck, I hope I'm with Kai. I think to myself as he draws names.

"Kai.... And...."  May... May... May! "Emelia." Shit. He knew Emelia. They were in a big friend group... I don't pay attention to it...

Finally... My name... "May... Your working with.... Stéfan."
Who's Stefan? I don't care... I keep my head planted in my desk.
Class is dismissed.
As I stand. Wobbling a bit. I get a tap. I look behind me wearily. Then down. He...
My eyes light up for a mere second... He looks like... Like... I can't describe it.

"Hello! You are... May? I'm stéfan!" He extended he hand for a handshake. He's quite short. Yet so muscular looking and big built. My shaky hand gently approaches. My fingers caress his palm then I shake his hand lightly. Taking my hand away as I intentionally intertwine our fingers for a moment.

"... Hello..."

He's staring at me... I wonder what he's thinking.

"Let's exchange contacts" he hands me his phone. I pull out mine. It has a crack in the screen... I enter him into my phone. I then stare back at him. Its like bliss. I can't take my eyes off him.

"I'll text you soon." He interrupts then leaves the classroom. I trail behind later. Looking for kai.

I'm still dazed... I'm not in the right headspace. Who was that boy?

"Hey, you alright?" It's kai... I can tell... I'm good with voices. Always able to recognize someone. "Let's get food!"

"Yes let's get going" I follow him.

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