amazing new mexico sunset .

amazing new mexico sunset, part 1

Tuesday, June 28, 2005.
amazing new mexico sunset. im hanging on a bridge with my friend mikey way from my chem. its all orange and pink above us. we went to another waterpark again. i love high fives again. totally back in love.

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i stare out into the open horizon, taking a long, deep breath as the wind hits my skin. i smile softly and turn to face mikey, admiring the way his eyes and skin look in the sun. i sigh quietly and lean back on the bridge, my dark bangs falling across one of my eyes as i look up into the beautiful coloured sky.
as i take the comfortable silence that is hanging is the air as the two of us stay side by side to think, to reflect. for the past month or so, life hasn't been the easiest for me, but being with mikey makes me feel like none of my problems ever existed. he makes everything better.

we continue to sit quietly, before the silence is broken by the sound of mikey yawning. "you tired?" i ask, slowly sitting back up. "mhm, yeah." mikey responds, his voice quiet and filled with exhaustion. i nod. you really can't find a way to blame him for being tired, can you? it's been a big day. "do you want to go home now? it's getting dark out, anyway." i say as i push myself up from the ground so that im now standing up. i brush myself off and hold a hand out for mikey, waiting for him to take it so i can help him to his feet.

once mikey is up and on his feet, he lets go of my hand. once is hand is gone from mine, it feels like a piece of me is missing and i try my hardest to suppress a disappointed sigh, but it ends up slipping out anyway, and he raises and eyebrow at me. "what, sad that we aren't holding hands right now?" he jokingly questions, laughing quietly. my cheeks flush a little and i nervously laugh along with him, gently rubbing the back of my neck. "nope." i respond, trying to sound calm and collected, but i'm not sure if it worked too well.

we begin making our way across the bridge, walking side by side in the same comfortable silence we were sitting in before. i take a deep breath in as i look up at the beautiful coloured sky above us, a soft smile crossing my lips. i reach into my pocket and pull out my mp3 player as well as my earbuds and connect them, before holding one of the ear pieces out to mikey. "wanna listen?" i ask, waiting for him to take it. he nods and takes the earbud, putting it in his ear at the same time as i put mine in. i put on some of the songs we both like, and put the mp3 into the pocket of my shirt, because if i put it in my pant pocket the wire would rip out. the wire hangs and sways between as as we walk side by side, gently brushing against our shoulders.

we walk for a while, and i eventually lose track of how long we've been walking for. i recognise the area, though, so i know we're getting close to mikeys house so i can drop him off. we pass the street sign, and i begin to dread having to go home alone. we continue walking and i gulp as i see his house appear faintly in the distance, a lump forming in my throat as we pass the last few houses before his. i look at him from the corner of my eye as we approach his doorstep, and see him take out the earbud as i turn to face him. he hands the earbud to me and smiles, giving me a nod. "thanks a lot for today, pete." he says, and i respond with a small "no problem." as i watch him begin to unlock his front door.

once he's inside, i stand and stare at the closed door for a few seconds before i sigh, turning around. i put the ear piece that mikey had in his ear into mine, now having been music blaring into both of my ears. i slowly begin to walk in the opposite direction of his house, down the driveway and across the street. my house isn't too far from his, so i should be able to get home before the sun fully sets, which is good. as i make my way home, i keep my head down and quietly hum along to the songs that are playing in my ears.

after a while, i finally arrive to my house. alone. without mikey. i lean against my door and just think about him, everything about him that i love, like his glasses. i love his hair, and that beanie he always wears.. his eyes, his smile... everything. i just love him. i run my hand through my hair and sigh, finally reaching into my pocket and taking out my keys so that i can unlock my door. once it's unlocked, i step inside and walk over to the couch, practically collapsing down on it with exhaustion. i'll just sleep here tonight, i guess.

it'd be better if you were by my side, mikey.