Roses and Their Thorns

When It all Began

I first added him on Snapchat on 12th May 2023 because as it turns out he actually wished me a happy birthday on his story but because I didnt have him added I didnt see it. We were in the same chemistry and Spanish classes and sat next to each other but yet never uttered a word to one another only the odd few "oh excuse me" or "sorry" when the other was walking to their chairs. Me and him talked for a while that day, talked about our interests and our music tastes, he recommended a couple of bands to listen to such as Radiohead and Tv girl. To which I did and immediately fell in love with those few bands he recommended to me, but as time went on I realised that wasnt the only thing I fell in love with. Charlie Black. That was his name. I found myself growing even more attracted to him as our conversations turned daily there was so many things I loved about this boy, his fluffy brown hair, his freckles and those eyes, oh those piercing blue eyes, the same eyes that shimmer when the light catches them perfectly. As much as we spoke over text and snapchat we never spoke in real life which we both thought was rather funny considering how much we talked every day but never face to face. He liked me or atleast I think he did? my mum always says to me "Charlotte you need to forget about him" but thats the thing I cant forget him because he was and still is such a huge part my life. Knowing him has taught me so many lessons that hopefully I wont forget. Like just because a man talks to you doesnt immediately mean he is attracted to you, but I was too naive and stupid to see that at the time and I was too blinded by love and the though of having some kind of romantic potential with him that I didnt even consider the darker side of those daydreams, he might not have liked me, he couldve had a girlfriend or he couldve been gay. Fun fact: none of those things were true. Another fun fact: as I am writing this Im currently talking to him on the phone I mean how pathetic is that? I am talking to the guy Im currently writng about. But I will say this, if I knew back then what I know now...I wouldve told him how I felt about him a lot sooner than I did, maybe...just maybe things couldve ended up a lot different a lot better, a lot happier than they are now.