someone im not supposed to love (Johnny Lawrence X yn brown)

part three-movie night at the browens

our first day of school was on a Friday which is stupid but we got to have a movie night in our basement! Witch was okay but id rather be alone right now but we get in my house

"Ima go take a shower."I said while walking up my stairs. I get a pair of clothes out of my closet and put them on my counter top I got in the shower and just stood there I don't know why I feel like this but I do

After a good 30 minutes in the shower you get out and get dressed brush ur teeth and do your skin care. You walk down stairs into the basement to see all the boys laughing and Annie setting there almost asleep.

You walk up and set down next to her.

"Thought you weren't coming back."she said laughing

"I didn't want to but didn't want them to think something was wrong."I said looking at the boys they were playing pool..Jimmy was winning at the moment..all I wanted was to go to sleep.

"Hey guys me and Annie are going to my room"I said while pulling Annie up buy the arm.

"Okay"Bobby said not looking up from the pool table I wanted to be alone but it be wired if i didn't take Annie with me and I didn't care to

We walked up to my room and we was talking about how basketball stared soon and how we where seniors

The boys walked in.

"We know you ain't okay yn"Jimmy said setting down next to me on my bed

"I'm fine."i said setting on my bed looking at the people in my room.

"We know you better yn"Johnny said.

"Yeah okay maybe I don't want to tell yall."I said getting a little annoyed looking at them all. we all just stayed where we where not saying anything kinda getting awkward I didn't know what to say i didn't want to say anything

"So. what's the plan for tomorrow?" Jimmy asked looking around tryna break up the awkwardness

"I'm staying home tomorrow"I said not looking up just looking down at my socks

"Why we needa do something fun."Jimmy also said.

"Don't feel like doing anything"I said with a sigh

"Come one we can find something to do."Tommy added

"I'm sure yall can."I said getting up walking to the bathroom.

Get to the bathroom and shut the door. I don't know what has gotten into me I never act like this. I stay there n calm myself down for a few before I hear a Knock at the door

"I will be out ina minute."I said thru the door

"I don't care open up"I hear Johnny say.

I open the door and see Johnny.

"What."I say looking at the blonde as he walks in

"What's up with you."he asked looking at me

"Nothing." I said seething down on the tub

"That's a fucking lie." He said

"It's really not just don't feel good"I said trying to lie.

"Okay if you say so"he said looking at me before walking out.

I give it a minute and walked out also. It was around 11:30 and the boys where in my room talking to each other

I grabe a hoodie and my car keys and head out my door I need to get out of here just for a while I don't need to see Johnny

I walk down my stairs to the garage and hope in my car I turn on my radio and Motley Crue was playing I loved them. I turn it up and pull out of the garage.

Didn't really know where I was going but I didn't care
I saw this cool looking shop and I pull into it. It was a record store

I get out and go in flipping thru the records I found some good ones to the new album from Bon Jovi slippery when wet. and a Motley Crue album. I was walking back to my car hoping not to find any of the boys they probably wasn't looking for me. but I didn't care I wanted to be alone I wanted some peace.

Got in my car and stared to drive to the beach. At this point I should live at the beach it's like we are always here.

I get out of my car and start to walk. I didn't mean to just walk out like that. I think I finally figured out why I'm acting like this..I like Johnny. I know i shouldn't have acted like that but I can't like Johnny. His someone I can't like. His my best friend. His my brother's best friend. If we broke up it would tare the group up. I can't lose Johnny. Let alone all of them.

It's hard to be in this situation. Cause honestly I don't know what to do. Unless I try and avoid the feelings I have for Johnny.

I kept walking down the beach until my car was within sight. I see a bike pull in beside my car hoping it wasn't one of the boys.

of course it was. it wasn't who I thought it was going to be tho it was Jimmy.

"What are you doing Jimmy?"I asked walking up to him

"Looking for you." He said looking at me

"Why." I say crossing my arms. I know im overreacting all this and i shouldn't have left like that.

"What's wrong you never just up n leave like that."he asked me

"I-I know im overreacting and i shouldn't be acting this way but i like johnny..and i know i shouldn't.." I finally confessed my feelings about johnny just not to Johnny.

"Oh yn..he likes you to.."jimmy said with a laugh

"No he don't your just saying that to make me feel better."I said with a look there's no way he likes me

"He really dose. I'm not lying."he said and he looked like he ment it I just didn't believe it.

"But it's not like I can actually be in a relationship with him." I said with a sigh

"Why not?"Jimmy asked me confused

"Because what if we break up what would that do to the group and I don't want to lose Johnny let alone all of you to."I said with tears in my eyes just thinking about it

"You could never lose us and even if you and Johnny got together and broke up you'd never lose him."Jimmy said while giving me a hug.

"Do me a favor and don't tell Johnny I told you I like him."I said looking up at Jimmy

"Do me a favor and don't tell johnny I told you he likes you I don't want to lose my arm."he said looking down at me with a laugh

"Let's get home."I said while getting in my car

Long time im sorry it took me so long to get this chapter out I've kinda lost motivation but im back for a little more Jimmy in this one feeling like it's okay!! Hope yall enjoy

                                                                      -love tori🫶🏻