Meant for something more...

2: Littel Freak

A broken ankle, karma rules
You never saw my birthmark
I was thinkin' about who you are
Your delicate point of view, I was thinkin' about you
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Charlotte's walking to her maths class. To seem more normal she's wearing noice canceling headphones instead of ear defenders. She used to wear her ear defenders all the time in her old school, she didn't have to worry about being bullied or masking all day there. But in her new school that's all she worries about. Her math teacher, Miss Adler, is also Charlotte's along with some other students support person. That's one thing about this school that she likes. There's special support staff/teachers for students who need extra help.

"Hi Charlotte" Miss Adler greats her as she sits down.

"Hi" She's not to interested in a conversation right now, as she's feeling quite drained from masking and overwhelmed and anxious about her next test, she dosen't want her dad to take away her music.

"Are we not doing a lot of talking today?" Miss Adler asks with sincerity in her voice.
Charlotte shakes her head in reply.

"Okay, if you need anything during class or any other class during the day you can always come to me" Miss Adler says before going back to preparing for the remaining minutes of brake.
As the rest of her year floods in to the classroom she feels overwhelmed, Charlotte has never liked large groups of people and her year group is huge, in this classroom alone is 34 people not including her or Miss Adler. So she decides to keep her noice canceling headphones on.
Class goes on like usual till half the lesson had gone.

"Ryan please remove your headphones" Miss Adler tells someone in the back row.

"How come Charlotte is aloud to were her headphones when I'm not!" Ryan, the kid, says quite annoyed.

"That's non of your business. Now please remove your headphones" Miss Adler says sternly.
He dose as Miss Adler says and then turns to his friends.

"She's probably one of those special needs kids" He mocks.

"You're right, what a freak" One of his friends join in.

They continue mocking her for the rest of class, not loud enough for Miss Adler to hear but Charlotte caught some of the things they were saying.

I really am a freak.

A good for nothing freak.

Charlotte thought to herself.

As lunch rolled around Charlotte was sitting by herself in the cafeteria with her untouched lunch, scrolling on her phone as she gets a message from Lex

Lex<3
Hi! How's school? Anyways look what I found

Lex had sent a link. It was an open call for any and all up and coming singers to open for...
Harry Styles! This can't be real. He wants a up and coming artist to be his opener for the whole of his new tour.

Lex<3
You should 100% send in you music. And if you get it, you could get me free tickets!

Charlotte
Like that would ever happen, he wouldn't want me no one would.

Charlotte
Also I can't handle crowds well

Lex<3
First of, your amazing and talented, you should do it 100%. What's the worst that can happen. Secondly you'll be up on stage where the crowds can't get to you.

Charlotte
Fair point. Still I don't know.

Lex<3
You're going to regret it if you don't at least try. Anyways lunch brake is over, I've got to go. Love you <3

Charlotte
Love you too <3

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As Charlotte got home she quickly ran to her room, she wanted to send in her music. Like Lex said, what's the worst that could happen?
As she inspected the link more she saw that it was real, like 100% real. She new Lex also would have checked it was real, she always dose but Charlotte had to be 100% sure. Now all she had to do was decide on two songs to send in. She has a lot of songs, maybe she could do Past Times, it's one of her favorite songs she's ever written and it's one of the few that has a happy sound to it.

Eventually after contemplating for a long time Charlotte decides to send in Past Times and I'd never let the mask slip. Past Times is about when she was little and how much fun she had, and I'd never let the mask slip is the song she played for Lex a few days ago.
She already had a recording of past times but to be extra sure it's good she decides to record it again.
Charlotte grabs her guitar and starts strumming the intro.

"Oh what I'd do to go back to past times" She begins

"A laugh in the park, a daydream
Dancing with friends, play dates all weekend" she continues to play a melody on her guitar

"Our moms sharing drinks while we play in the garden, laughing at our silly games.
We'd put up dances and plays for them"

"Running around at the school playground
'Tag your it' echoes through every memory.
Counting to 20, searching for each other"

"Wish we didn't grow up, it's the curse of childhood,
Our problems went from not being aloud to have a play date to stressing about tests and looks"
Half way through the song now, and she feels like crying. She misses being a child

"Looking at past times, forever thankful for the laughter echoing through my memories"

"A laugh in the park, a daydream
Dancing with friends, it never ends"

"Happiness scattered through hopes and dreams,
In Treehouses we'd  play pretend. Our moms sharing drinks hoping we'd stay innocent all our years"

"A laugh in the park, it all feels like a daydream
Playing pretend, dancing with friends
Years of joy, past times linger"

"No longer a child but the laughs still echoes
Hopes and dreams will never go, it will be a part of me, feels like a mother lifetime. So for yet so close. I long for past times"
Charlotte strums the outro on her guitar almost in tears, she misses her childhood... and her mom