Moonbaby {Part -1} | Jihope

Chapter-4

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You are so beautiful Jimin. No matter what other net citizens say. You will always be beautiful for me.
   
                                          –Army

Jimin knew the thing his heart was doing was very much wrong. Wrong in every way. He knew he was going to end up getting hurt. No one in this world is gonna accept his innocent emotions towards his Hyung that had turn into something else. Not even himself.

No he didn't cry. It was strange for him not to cry in moment like this when his heart is broken by someone who have no idea about things going on into Jimin’s messed up mind. "Fuck.." He laid on to his back on his bed staring on the Hoseok's side. He knew Hoseok is not gay, nor bisexual. There was not a ounce of possibility of him liking Jimin romantically. Hoseok has always been fond of girls and Jimin has always been fond of Hoseok even after knowing the whole truth. Still after hearing that Hoseok has a crush on girl has shattered his heart like broken glass that wouldn't be able recover. Not soon.

Jimin thought he was prepared. Prepared for the heart break. The day he accepted his feelings toward his Hyung after lots of self blaming, irritations, lone crisis, cryings, anger and frustration towards himself, Jimin has been preparing to see Hoseok be a prefect boyfriend to some girl. He had forced himself to imagine Hoseok holing hands, kissing, saying cheesy things, cracking dirty jokes with someone who is not him. Touching person, making her feel all hot and shy, being happy with someone who is not him. Jimin had practiced so, so much that it had dramatically started to appear in his dreams.

Yet the reality hit him so hard, making his brain go numb. The pain in his heart had travelled to his chest hurting him so much that his fist was forced to give little punches to make it go away. Come on, you knew this was gonna happen. One or the other day. Hoseok is gonna have girlfriend and get married. He have his own life. You already knew this. He tried to convince himself. Wanting the feeling of heartbreak go away but it won't just leave him like that. Why does it hurt so much..?

Maybe because there was still little tiny ray of hope in Jimin's mind creating delusions of Hoseok liking him back. The way Hoseok took care of him, called him with nicknames, Always helped him, flirted back with him, said him that he loves him was transported to his heart in a wrong way. The brotherly love, the care of Hoseok towards Jimin as younger brother and bestfriend was ruined by the different kind of feelings.

Jimin pulled the duvet close to his chest, wrapping his hands and legs around it and hugging it tightly for the warm but all he got was coldness because of the air conditioner that was on.

Why am I like this? Jimin questioned to himself. He always hated how he fall for people so easily and to get back on to the ground after a heart break is always so hard for him. It's always him who take other's kindness into something else. And in the end when he realizes it always to late. The person is all over his mind and heart.

The door clicked open getting Jimin out of his deep thoughts. And there was Hoseok. He heard a faint sound of Namjoon saying something about the bathroom door before Hoseok closed the door making everything dark once again.

"Hyung." He called out. Hoseok hummed switching on the lights of the room before walking to his closest and removing clothes. Jimin didn't say anything. He just forgot he had called Hoseok until the elder questioned him once again. "What happened Jimin? Do you need anything?" Jimin hesitated. He wanted some time to cry alone for his misery but also he wanted Hoseok close to him, knowing he wouldn't get this man to himself in future. "Can I cuddle you to night?" He was already out of his bed, going to Hoseok's. "Sure why not? I'll just take a quick shower." Hoseok said, taking his bathrob with him into the bathroom.

Jimin snuggled into Hoseok's bed which contained more of warmth and it smelled just like Hoseok, causing comfort to Jimin.

Soon the rapper was back from shower in his bathrob. The sight of his Hyung only in bathrob with water dripping from his hair and that clean scent hitting Jimin’s nose was so hot for Jimin making his stare obvious.  Hoseok took the hair dryer to blow his hair and glanced at younger male who was whining for him. "Just a second Minnie. I'll be there." He said, changing into pajamas before hoped into the bed beside younger who immediately wrapped his hand around Hoseok's waist. "Took you so long." Jimin said making Hoseok laugh. "Well I'm here now." Hoseok held younger close to his chest, their legs tangled into each other.

"Good night Hyung."

Hoseok kissed on the top of Jimin’s head, his fingers running through younger's hair. "Good night Minnie."

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It was rare for Jimin to wake up before Hoseok but he was here admiring Hoseok's sharp yet soft features, his hand on Hoseok's chest and his eyes all over Hoseok's face. Hyung's so beautiful.. He tugged Hoseok's hair behind his ear and gently placed his head on Hoseok's chest, listening to Hoseok's calm heart beat. It was like music to Jimin’s ear as he tried to match his breath with Hoseok's heart.

It may be childish but jimin loved to do this. He always did it whenever he woke up before Hoseok, wrapped up in Hoseok's embrace, in Hoseok's scent. Before he used to fall asleep hearing to the voice but today the memories of yesterday; Hoseok accepting his crush on a girl bought pain back again in his chest. He realized that moment he have now will not always be with him. Hoseok would be sharing moments like this with someone else too. 

He looked up at Hoseok.

It was still dark in the room with lights off and curtains close. His heart just cannot process Hoseok with someone else not matter how much he prepare himself for brutal heart break.  He said it was a crush. Jimin thought. He feels guilty when a selfish idea crossed his mind. But Hoseok did say that it was a crush. The girl is still not his girlfriend. Maybe Jimin could now try to make Hoseok fall for him. He knew this will lead him to nowhere but what if it work?

If he failed it would definitely hurt and if he doesn't than...

Everything I have is now.

Leaning ahead, Jimin placed a soft kiss on Hoseok's jaw, an attempt to wake him up.  "Hobi." He kissed him his cheek and Hoseok whined. "Morning Hyungie." Another kiss on Hoseok's nose finally had the male's eyes open. He smiled hugging Jimin once again. "Good morning baby." Hoseok's groggy voice adding nickname which was clearly referring to Jimin brought shivers to run down on Jimin’s body and pink blush on his cheeks. The greeting was like they were a couple.

"Good morning Hyung."

Hoseok sat up stretching his arms and yawning out loud while Jimin pushed his body towards his Hyung curling like a caterpillar. Hoseok ruffled Jimin’s hair. "Let's head out. I can already smell Jin Hyung's cooking." He patted Jimin’s Butt before walking to bath room.

Jimin stared at the bathroom door few minutes than sighed, flipping on to his back and looked at the ceiling. He had made his mind. He's is gonna try. Whatever takes to make Hoseok Hyung his but in healthy way. He would try his best. If in the end Hoseok can't accept Jimin’s feelings than the younger would gladly accept the defeat.

I'm gonna seduce the hell out of hyung if he doesn't get a hint in my innocent ways.

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