Today I stopped beating myself up...
I believe that's what I always wanted i guess. For my mind to work with me instead of against me. But now I see it was me who was battling this whole time. Like Alaina says, "we're lost."
I feel like I've made it easy on myself now. Thank you Father for allowing me to experience this. 24 years I was tormenting myself it feels like but finally I found clarity, sanctuary, peace. This might be what enlightenment feels like. If I had to describe it in case I forget, which is likely, it's like it's just me navigating myself. There's no multiple voices trying to fight for control of my body. Before I was beating myself thinking about what I should do next, but now I just feel clear. Idk that makes much sense but this is the best I can do right now.
Life is good. Whether you believe that or not is up to you but it can be good. You just have to work to make it so.
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Today I stopped beating myself up.
RandomThrough years of soul searching and trial and error, I finally found a moment of peace. I am Sharing this for myself and if helps anyone else, that'd be great.
